25.12.13

#42: Less than 3 weeks left

So it has come to this.
You, who might be checking on my blog now... Congratulations! It's actually a new post! Sadly not one like you might have wished for. No updates on my life. Not really.
In fact, I've only got about 2 1/2 weeks left here in Japan. Had good times, had bad times, but won a new home. I just don't want to think about leaving this wonderful place, country, all the people.
I don't have a choice though.
January 12th I'll be at the airport, packed with my stuff (hopefully no overweight because I bought to much merchandise and other otaku shit) and entering the plane, feeling like a dream is bursting right in front of me. But it won't be the last time. No, definitely not.
Good news is, that after that, I might actually get to update shit. Plenty of pictures have been taking lately, so yeah, it's gonna be interesting awesome! I mean I would have the time and possibilities to do that now, too, but I'm too lazy. I don't want to spend any minute of my precious time in Japan on typing down my experiences. It makes me feel sad. Instead, I wanna live them and see, what I remember later. If it has been important... Why yes, of course I will remember. If not, I don't. I'm not making a fuss about that. I just want to enjoy it for all I can...

In other words, Merry almost over Christmas!

14.7.13

#41: It's dangerous to go alone…

…so take a Pokemon with you!
When the chaos started, I just wished more than anything that someone would have told me that.

After getting up at 7 in the morning as usually and going down stairs an hour later, I saw my Dad was already absent (he goes golfing every weekend) and Mum was already awake since she has work every Sunday. Followed by watching as planned for every Sunday "Doki Doki Pretty Cure", I had a lonesome breakfast. I'm not exactly sure why, but the series (for little girls) does excite me (г////г)
Before my host Mum left for work, she told me to go to the library instead of turning on the fan at the ceilar to save energy (electricity here is cheaper during night ime).
"I'm going to the 「Get Together Party」 of my organisation.", I replied.
A few hours later I left the house for that purpose. I set my worry on a high level when I saw that the battery of my mobile phone only had two out of three bars left. (Don't ask, but that means I've got less than 50% left.) I was assuming that I'd meet up with the American from yesterday at the appointed time and place so I wouldn't need my phone much… Right?
The train rolled into the station. I stared through the glasses, trying to make out my company. No sign.
"Sheesh, calm down, you whimp, that's normal, the train didn't even stop yet!", I told myself and got into the first car of the train where we wanted to meet. But again, no sign.
I checked the mail with the appointment so many times. I even walked into the third car after we passed the next station, but still nothing. I took a deep breath, fighting off the bad thoughts that wanted to make me cry desperately. When I was calm enough again, I summoned my strength and called a number that had called me when I went to the station. I thought it might be someone from the American's host family, but since the number didn't try calling again I labeled it unimportant.
A guy picked up. I was confused, the train was loud, I barely understood anything. But I got that it was his host brother and he was going to help me getting to the party since I didn't know how to get there alone. I was relieved, even if it was just so awkward.
After a few more calls I knew I was supposed to get off at Shinjuku and take a different line. By then I had figured out how to get there myself because a day earlier the American guy send me a photo of the time table. I couldn't read the names of the stations to ask people, but I could compare them with the plan in my schedule notebook.
During a last call I told his host brother I was okay now and thanked him again. I don't think that thank was enough yet, I own him. He kinda calmed me down where I was about to panic.
Either way, upon my arrival at the destination train station, my phone died. Just awesome, I thought. Luckily on the way to the meeting spot of my organization were signs.
It didn't really take long to get there and everything was still so familiar.
But when I entered the room and saw the room with almost 100 people sitting in a circle and wanted to pay my fee, tears just started filling up my eyes and eventually rolled down my cheeks. What are you doing? Stop. Please, I begged and used the towel I bought yesterday in Akihabara and ever since wore around my neck to wipe away the symbol of weakness. I was just so released. Instantly people close by started questioning me. "Are you okay? What happened? It's okay." Goddammit, that kindness just wanted to make me sob harder.

The day just got better after that. On the meeting were Japanese people that returned from other countries and people living in the area that came TO Japan, mostly American people. Everyone was awesome, if you were like standing alone for more than a minute someone would come and talk to you, be it in English or Japanese (Bitch please, I'm quadroingual.). I talked to a lot of people I would have liked to stay in touch with, but also didn't talk to people that seemed really interesting. That's regrettable since I might never meet them again. Well, probably I won't.
It rained heavily when we walked as a group of five back to the station. I was wearing my towel on too of my head, not really minding getting wet. The rain was lovely, I just frowned when there was thunder and held my ears.
We grabbed ice cream, then I headed home, looking forward to tomorrow: A concert of friends.

13.7.13

#40: Test post (a.k.a. My feet hurt)

It was supposed to be a cool day. Not literally, sadly.
I was planning to hang out with some American (otaku) guy in Akihabara. I knew from the very beginning I had no money to go - well, if I calculated right, I had about 1000¥ because my mum gave me some to charge my IC card I use for trains.
First of all, after getting of at Akihabara the heat just tried killing you. It wasn't very pleasant, but a typical Japanese summer. (Luckily I was smart enough to borrow a towel from my sister - saved me so many times from looking like a sweating pig.)
The first thing I saw was that huge, blue building with a sign saying "SEGA". The last time I read that word was in May in Ginza; You could play Project Diva f and Mirai there (Who knows me also knows that Vocaloid happens to be my number one fandom. Only Goodness knows why.) Anyway, that's why I was really excited to go there, bu‾t my company wanted to go to a huge anime/manga/merchandise shop instead called "animate". So we went there. There and to many other shops. They all had two things in common: They were cramped and had such a bright selection that you were kinda spammed with all kinda anime stuff. Even if you wanted to buy something, you just couldn't. Too. Much.
In a shop that sold second hand stuff I found my luck though (in Japan you just have to be a cheap scape or you'll go under). No picture because yeah,take my lunch instead (no hipster, no instagram). What I bought was a Dragon Quest X bag and a K-ON towel. As a member and otaku of that club I just have to show some pride.
After the lunch we pretty much went into every shop. I just started feeling more and more tired with the fucking heat and my feet feeling heavier and heavier. After walking from 9 to 17 o'clock I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, but either way it was a pain. (Ladies and gentlemen, please slap your legs, that word play was terrible.)
At the latter time we decided to head back home. Nothing really happened anymore besides me meeting some people in Pokémon Black 2. I really love the pass-by function. And Twitter. Damn, I adore Twitter (once again). Oh, you Japanese people.

(Since posting actually works, I'll be able to do it. I'm not really satisfied that I can only send post two pictures and they're put at the beginning of the message but better than nothing, right? :3)

12.7.13

#39: And unexpectedly...

...a short message!
I might have found a way to post with pictures after all. I didn't test it yet, I will very soon though. If it works out, I’m gonna get back to blogging after all. Hopefully (TT__TT)
Thanks to everyone who kept on checking my blog (...not like anyone did *coughs*).
Stay tuned~

12.3.13

#38: The apocalypse sets is...

Today I told the third teacher after my final lesson with them that I wouldn't be coming for a while. It's more fun when they seemed to know nothing until I told them. Hopefully I won't forget to return my books to the school. Also, I got my credit card today and my start budget. Yen are fucking sexy. (I got my budget in 1000 bills so yeah.)

After paying the bank a visit for this, Z-nee, who came to my place after school, and I got off at Hungary-sama's place where we ate her homemade Frankfurt crown cake. There aren't many cakes I like but fuck that shit, whatever Hungary-sama bakes and/or cooks, I'll eat it. Her stuff is sooooo delicious!ヾ(´ε`*)
We planned a cake we wanted to bake for the book fair. Since it's my idea and so on I'll have to buy all the ingredients but since my mum won tickets for that book fair I don't have to buy the ticket. Saves me a lot of money. Althoooough it seems like my mum'll buy the stuff for me in the end... Ψ(`▽´)Ψ
Means Thursday I have to prepare pudding and butter, say good-bye to my grandparents...
And I finally did some packing today! Thanks to the wonderful climate in Chiba, the city where I'll stay, I don't have to think much about winter clothes  The coldest months are at least 10°C warm so I concentrated more on summer clothes. I have to pack for a whole year after all OTL
Now only such things as an adapter for the outlet or things for my private hygiene are necessary, besides I probably got everything I need.
Also, with all that preparation I'm really pumped to wear my lolita dress there. The first time I wore one the first person every asked to take a picture of me. I was so honoured since I just wore the dress and... weeeell, I'm looking forward to it anyway ^o^

11.3.13

#37: I think I love all of you (almost equally)

Today during I.T. class I checked my blog as usually. I saw that people from the countries the people in my Skype list are from all clicked on my blog.
I'm pretty sure not everyone of you is even interested in reading/enjoying the shit I'm producing here but you should know that it's making me veeeery happy ❤ (I'm still missing England here but it's alright, Spain is making up for it I guess ︶ ω ︶;; )
So yeah, feel hugged? As soon as I'm in Japan I can't post the link as my Skype status anymore but I hope you'll keep on clicking ; A ;
Or just message me on Skype, I'll set you on the subscriber list. IF YOU WANT THAT IS. (Goddammit, it feels horrible to be like "Oooooh, everything for the fans!" and as soon as it's getting less "FUCK THE FANS!". I'm totally the type for this. Who am I calling a fan anyway.)
I love you guys.

10.3.13

#36: Adjourned preparations

Soooo actually mum and me wanted to pack my stuff. Actually. What happened? NOTHING ❤
But at least I got a lot of sweets I'm going to gift my family. We'll still buy some more but it'll be enough. (Thanks to a certain girl for all the tips and hints and inspirational ideas and so on. Helped a lot.)
And then we have to pack next week. Saturday I'll be busy after all with wearing a lolita dress and running around on a book fair, trying to get autographs of my favourite mangaka. Ema Toyama for example. I want her shikishi ; A ; I'd also get some Tite Kubo for Master, but... I DON'T HAVE ANY MANGA OF HIM D:
The last day of the week, Sunday, I'll probably meet up with some friends and see them for the last time.
Z-nee'll come with me to the airport, I still can't express how happy I am about this. She was also the first one who registered to Dropbox. So much gay love for my best friend ; v ;
More otaku stuff I can report about is that I finished episode 6 of Brave10. Master made me watch this shit and I don't like it at all (annoying female and male main characters, lame story...) but now that I'm halfway through I'm just gonna finish it. Not like I got anything better to do anyway. Of course noooot. I could learn Japanese or... do effective things but instead, why not watch an anime you don't like? Envy-chan, you're making so much sense. Ohohoho, yes I am. Not.
Oh, and I'm at volume 9 of Love Hina. I want to finish the series before I leave. I got all the volumes, so why am I not finishing them? I'M SO LAZY AND UNPRODUCTIVE THESE DAYS. Friends, why aren't you kicking my ass? x'D
Last 5 school days. I can do it!

9.3.13

#35: "Mental" preparations

Today, there are only 9 days left. When did time started running so fast? It's incredible.
After getting some sleep my Mum and me'll buy a gift for my host family. We thought about sweets and maybe something for upcoming Eastern. After all, we celebrate it here even if we're not Christian.
Also I'll start packing tomorrow. I'm surprised that I'm allowed to take almost 50 kg with me. That's twice the weight I expected. But actually, it's fine with me since I can take more stuff for 10 months with me that way.
So, what have I been up to besides that? I got my visa last week, means I'll be able to legally stay in Japan now. Also I got the ticket for my flight and started giving all my people who I want to stay in touch with my postal address (if you didn't get it yet and I intend to stay in touch with you, wait for it, I'm still at that). Aaaaand I made myself a Dropbox account. Since I'll be only uploading pictures without me on it here (selected ones only), I'm gonna upload all the pictures on a shared Dropbox folder, available for close friends and family. With that, my parents, my brother, Ouji-kun, Master, Z-nee and Hungary-sama are meant (in the first place).
I think I was better off when my Omegle network was banned. I just keep on meeting cool people I have to say good-bye to later ; ^ ; It's painful to see that. But how did a guy I met there say? It's a preparation for when my time in Japan ends, it'll be the same. Although I'll definitely see my friends here again, the same isn't guaranteed for Japan.

17.2.13

#34: Stuck between emotional difficulties

With every passing day, the time of my departure just gets closer. Today there are exactly 29 days left and the time until then will be rather short due to my plans. Okay, next weekend I got no plans so far but the week after that Ouji-kun'll visit again. Then another free weekend although that's the weekend when I should pack my stuff  for the long trip because the week after that I'll be on a book fair (in a lolita dress, whoop whoop ❤). Just two day after this I will depart. And the thought of this is not only bringing happy sentiments along but also gloomy ones.

It just is a fact that the closer the time is coming the cooler people I start meeting online. Another fact is also that I decided to limit myself to writing my blog, skyping once a month and writing letters. Naturally not everyone wants to write letters and I totally understand that. 10 months are a long time though and so I'm afraid of losing touch with those people who are important to me. The most of my friends agreed to this though. I was so happy when Hungary-sama said that she always wanted a pen pal. It terribly touched me and now that I thin about it my eyes are getting teary. Other people like Ouji-kun and Master agreed as well as a new friend I made during Winter break. They're adding up and the more people agree the more positive feelings I'm getting about all this. It's stupid but I guess due to a lot of otome games I became sensitive for relationships. If I'm not talking to a person although seeing her/him my affection this person decreases. I need to stay in touch regularly or the friendship status is kinda back to strangers. I saw that happening enough times already and honestly: I was always the only one who was feeling that way. For the other person our friendship froze when we were not talking. I can't do that. Not if the person isn't a close friend like Z-nee for example. Pfffff, during vacations we hardly ever talk and still we're like usually. (I LOVE YOU, GURRL)

I cried a lot over that matter. But this will after all be the year of my life and I will never ever have the chance again to experience something like that.
Ahahahaha, let's move on to happier things. Writing that actually helped a lot.

Valentine's Day was just a few days ago and this year I actually gifted chocolate to Z-nee and Hungary-sama. They looked so happy when I gave them the somewhat self-made chocolate, it was just perfect.
And then there was my brother who gifted me a game for iOS I always wanted: Miku Flick 02. It's not that cheap for a mobile game so I was really surprised when he showed me that. Best brother ever ; v ;

If anybody else wants to be my pen pal... Message me somehow. Comment here or wherever~

28.1.13

#33: MUAHAHAHA, I lied!

There never was a Christmas post. I took the pictures, but then last week my SD card broke, making all the stuff on it disappear. I have to buy a new one and re-take all the pictures, it's so annoying.

But let's forget Christmas for now, I'll report how the Japanfestival was and what I was doing concerning my year abroad because there indeed was stuff happening.
The Japanfestival was as awesome as it was two years ago. I bought a lot of second hand manga, increasing my collection to a total of 314 manga. Over 20 are still unread. It's annoying as well but actually fun. Right now I'm reading Sgt. Keroro. My favourite character is Giroro and Tamama. They're so cute! But actually the highlight of the whole event was a certain show group which did not only perform a Bleach show but also took part in a cosplay casting. They were the viewer's favourite (according to the applause etc) but still didn't win the final. That made me really mad. That's all I can say. I loved it. 2015 I'll go again.

Now, to my year in Japan. First off all the important facts:
The year is actually "just" 10 months.
I'll take off at the 18th March this year.
I'll arrive in Narata.
My family lives one hour away from Tokyo, same for my school.
My school is amazing.
I can look over to Disneyland over the sea <3 br="">
I haven't done it yet, but I will write my family a letter. I can't wait longer, I bet they want to get to know me, too >___<
I heard of others that they got 2 families (arrival family, one for the time after that) but I'm really glad I didn't. I just hope it works out good for both of us. I need to learn Japanese ; 3 ;

But that wasn't what I wanted to share about what was going on. I wanted to talk about money.
The whole travel costs 7900€, quite much for my family. Well, actually it wouldn't be affordable without a scholarship. We got one, but there are still 6000€ left. That's why we went to a big company here in town and told them my problem. The time's running and they said we should have come sooner, but they said they'd try to help us. It's highly doubtable that we'll get ALL the money, of course not and my parents are gonna raise a credit, but the higher the credit is, the more interest there'll be. We want to keep it as small as possible, naturally. I offered to work when I'm coming back. Okay, I really hope that I don't have to do that. When I come back, I want to spend my time for school, friends, reuniting. And Japan. Not working. But if it's necessary, I'll sacrifice myself for that. That's just a minor thing I have to do in order to make my dream come true after all.
Now I got the tip that I should talk to high politician here. That'd be awesome if we could get more help.

So. Now I have to read more Keroro. After that: Shoujo.
And wow. This week. It's amazing. Today three classes, tomorrow two, the two days after that two or three and then... School reports and vacatioooooon. Woop woop! Slacking off! Like my favourite show group! <3 br="">