As always, I shall start this post with mentioning how long it's been since my last one: About 4 months. There isn't really much that has changed ever since then, which is definitely not a bad thing. I'm now in my second semester in university and while studying is getting even more important since I'll have muuuuuuch more exams this semester, my schedule couldn't be better.
Now I don't feel like I need to talk about my emotional well-being during these past months as it's been pretty well, however, I feel like I should talk about how I currently am feeling. Overall I can say I am in fact really enjoying
everything stuff in life right now. My relationship, my lifestyle, my free time. I surround myself in my private time with things and the person I love, namely being Netflix, Unison League, good food, tea and of course my significant other. [insert gayseal.jpg]
On the other side, I often question myself about the real me - I often feel like my colour is fading. It's like you suddenly don't know who you really are: What are my hobbies? What do I even like to do? Is there anything I'm good at? Because sometimes, I feel just so mediocre at things. There's nothing I can compete at with others, since I'm an
allrounder all-good-for-nothing. It's like I'm one of those characters in a sports game that has all her stats evenly divided and will therefore not win, but also not fall behind. Nice middle field. This is also one of the reasons why I feel loneliness wiping over me from time to time. (Though it's nowhere as bad as it was 2~3 years ago, it's undeniably there.) Like I said, although I am happy with my life, I want to share it with much more people. It might help me discover myself. Hell, even if it makes me feel just a little bit more social and less misanthropic that would be fine. I'm also looking for a concert buddy if anyone's willing to volunteer? (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑
