#38: The apocalypse sets is...

Today I told the third teacher after my final lesson with them that I wouldn't be coming for a while. It's more fun when they seemed to know nothing until I told them. Hopefully I won't forget to return my books to the school. Also, I got my credit card today and my start budget. Yen are fucking sexy. (I got my budget in 1000￥ bills so yeah.)

After paying the bank a visit for this, Z-nee, who came to my place after school, and I got off at Hungary-sama's place where we ate her homemade Frankfurt crown cake. There aren't many cakes I like but fuck that shit, whatever Hungary-sama bakes and/or cooks, I'll eat it. Her stuff is sooooo delicious!ヾ(´ε｀*)

We planned a cake we wanted to bake for the book fair. Since it's my idea and so on I'll have to buy all the ingredients but since my mum won tickets for that book fair I don't have to buy the ticket. Saves me a lot of money. Althoooough it seems like my mum'll buy the stuff for me in the end... Ψ(｀▽´)Ψ

Means Thursday I have to prepare pudding and butter, say good-bye to my grandparents...

And I finally did some packing today! Thanks to the wonderful climate in Chiba, the city where I'll stay, I don't have to think much about winter clothes  The coldest months are at least 10°C warm so I concentrated more on summer clothes. I have to pack for a whole year after all OTL

Now only such things as an adapter for the outlet or things for my private hygiene are necessary, besides I probably got everything I need.

Also, with all that preparation I'm really pumped to wear my lolita dress there. The first time I wore one the first person every asked to take a picture of me. I was so honoured since I just wore the dress and... weeeell, I'm looking forward to it anyway ^o^

#36: Adjourned preparations

Soooo actually mum and me wanted to pack my stuff. Actually. What happened? NOTHING ❤
But at least I got a lot of sweets I'm going to gift my family. We'll still buy some more but it'll be enough. (Thanks to a certain girl for all the tips and hints and inspirational ideas and so on. Helped a lot.)
And then we have to pack next week. Saturday I'll be busy after all with wearing a lolita dress and running around on a book fair, trying to get autographs of my favourite mangaka. Ema Toyama for example. I want her shikishi ; A ; I'd also get some Tite Kubo for Master, but... I DON'T HAVE ANY MANGA OF HIM D:
The last day of the week, Sunday, I'll probably meet up with some friends and see them for the last time.
Z-nee'll come with me to the airport, I still can't express how happy I am about this. She was also the first one who registered to Dropbox. So much gay love for my best friend ; v ;
More otaku stuff I can report about is that I finished episode 6 of Brave10. Master made me watch this shit and I don't like it at all (annoying female and male main characters, lame story...) but now that I'm halfway through I'm just gonna finish it. Not like I got anything better to do anyway. Of course noooot. I could learn Japanese or... do effective things but instead, why not watch an anime you don't like? Envy-chan, you're making so much sense. Ohohoho, yes I am. Not.
Oh, and I'm at volume 9 of Love Hina. I want to finish the series before I leave. I got all the volumes, so why am I not finishing them? I'M SO LAZY AND UNPRODUCTIVE THESE DAYS. Friends, why aren't you kicking my ass? x'D
Last 5 school days. I can do it!

#35: "Mental" preparations

Today, there are only 9 days left. When did time started running so fast? It's incredible.
After getting some sleep my Mum and me'll buy a gift for my host family. We thought about sweets and maybe something for upcoming Eastern. After all, we celebrate it here even if we're not Christian.
Also I'll start packing tomorrow. I'm surprised that I'm allowed to take almost 50 kg with me. That's twice the weight I expected. But actually, it's fine with me since I can take more stuff for 10 months with me that way.
So, what have I been up to besides that? I got my visa last week, means I'll be able to legally stay in Japan now. Also I got the ticket for my flight and started giving all my people who I want to stay in touch with my postal address (if you didn't get it yet and I intend to stay in touch with you, wait for it, I'm still at that). Aaaaand I made myself a Dropbox account. Since I'll be only uploading pictures without me on it here (selected ones only), I'm gonna upload all the pictures on a shared Dropbox folder, available for close friends and family. With that, my parents, my brother, Ouji-kun, Master, Z-nee and Hungary-sama are meant (in the first place).
I think I was better off when my Omegle network was banned. I just keep on meeting cool people I have to say good-bye to later ; ^ ; It's painful to see that. But how did a guy I met there say? It's a preparation for when my time in Japan ends, it'll be the same. Although I'll definitely see my friends here again, the same isn't guaranteed for Japan.

#33: MUAHAHAHA, I lied!

There never was a Christmas post. I took the pictures, but then last week my SD card broke, making all the stuff on it disappear. I have to buy a new one and re-take all the pictures, it's so annoying.

But let's forget Christmas for now, I'll report how the Japanfestival was and what I was doing concerning my year abroad because there indeed was stuff happening.
The Japanfestival was as awesome as it was two years ago. I bought a lot of second hand manga, increasing my collection to a total of 314 manga. Over 20 are still unread. It's annoying as well but actually fun. Right now I'm reading Sgt. Keroro. My favourite character is Giroro and Tamama. They're so cute! But actually the highlight of the whole event was a certain show group which did not only perform a Bleach show but also took part in a cosplay casting. They were the viewer's favourite (according to the applause etc) but still didn't win the final. That made me really mad. That's all I can say. I loved it. 2015 I'll go again.

Now, to my year in Japan. First off all the important facts:
The year is actually "just" 10 months.
I'll take off at the 18th March this year.
I'll arrive in Narata.
My family lives one hour away from Tokyo, same for my school.
My school is amazing.
I can look over to Disneyland over the sea <3 br="">
I haven't done it yet, but I will write my family a letter. I can't wait longer, I bet they want to get to know me, too >___<
I heard of others that they got 2 families (arrival family, one for the time after that) but I'm really glad I didn't. I just hope it works out good for both of us. I need to learn Japanese ; 3 ;

But that wasn't what I wanted to share about what was going on. I wanted to talk about money.
The whole travel costs 7900€, quite much for my family. Well, actually it wouldn't be affordable without a scholarship. We got one, but there are still 6000€ left. That's why we went to a big company here in town and told them my problem. The time's running and they said we should have come sooner, but they said they'd try to help us. It's highly doubtable that we'll get ALL the money, of course not and my parents are gonna raise a credit, but the higher the credit is, the more interest there'll be. We want to keep it as small as possible, naturally. I offered to work when I'm coming back. Okay, I really hope that I don't have to do that. When I come back, I want to spend my time for school, friends, reuniting. And Japan. Not working. But if it's necessary, I'll sacrifice myself for that. That's just a minor thing I have to do in order to make my dream come true after all.
Now I got the tip that I should talk to high politician here. That'd be awesome if we could get more help.

So. Now I have to read more Keroro. After that: Shoujo.
And wow. This week. It's amazing. Today three classes, tomorrow two, the two days after that two or three and then... School reports and vacatioooooon. Woop woop! Slacking off! Like my favourite show group! <3 br="">

#31: Error 404: Sleep not found

The birthday party was simply amazing. I had so much fun, it was just great. Well, I always have fun if I'm together with Z-nee but it's even more fun if Hungary-sama is around as well. We're a damn fine trio, working perfectly together. This weekend just proved it once more.

Hungary-sama picked Azu-nyan and me up and we drove to Z-nee's place (her parents drove us, but pffff (；≧∇≦) =3 ). We arrived just on time - 3 p.m., the time the celebration was supposed to start. After a powerful greeting from her dog which looks like a huge snowball and animosity towards us from her other younger dog, we sat down in the living room to eat cake (we had two different ones) and muffins (chocolate and vanilla with chocolate chips). I don't like cake, so I stuffed myself with muffins. Too bad I had lunch earlier, so I only got to eat two muffins (´∩｀。) I love Z-nee's muffin. Their consistence is just perfect. They weren't dry at all and... waaaah, muffins ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ
Once we finished we went upstairs and made us feel comfortable in one of her many living rooms. Our main intention was to watch a DVD, but first we sang a birthday song and gave Z-nee our gifts.

On the convention a month ago I spotted those two figures. I knew she loves the series, so Hungary-sama and me had the idea to split it and we take one of them. I took Tiger (I *am* Tiger!" 8D) and Hungary-sama Bunny (even if it was the other way round, doesn't matter). Azu-nyan got her the sexy Sebast-chan cup with Zelda mint drops. Hungary-sama also gifted her a picture frame with a photo of the three of us, but I won't show that, we all look retarded on that one 8D
After this was done, we finnaly watched the DVD from a magazine. On this DVD we had different 10 minute-previews of anime and also the first episodes of a few. We were curious about the German dub of Pandora Hearts, so we just watched that. That and a few others, as well as a guy cooking Christmas cake.
First series was "Berserk - Golden Age Arc Movie I". We watched it in Japanese so Azu-nyan'd understand it but they didn't talk much, so that was really pointless. 10 minutes didn't tell much about the story but I can say one thing for sure: I will never accept this person as a male. Eye lashes make everyone look more female, even the main character (that wasn't the main character though) ಠ_ಠ

After that we watched the thing we wanted to watch: Pandora Hearts. Although Oz (I'll call my child like that) is spoken by one of my favourite German voice actors, I can't help but think his voice doesn't fit the character at all. Hey, it's less worse than the horrible German dub of the new Fullmetal Alchemist movie (Milos something) where they used totally new voice actors although the old ones were just perfect ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ  But for some reason I don't want to watch the anime of the series. If I'll ever do something with the series, then it'll be reading. The manga has been for an eternity now on my shopping list but I always found games or manga with a higher priority so I never bought it. "Mardock Scramble : The Second Combustion" was next. I saw an article about the anime in the magazine already, but I swear, I didn't pay attention. So while we watched the first 10 minutes of it, there was this handsome blonde guy. He was getting friends with the main character and wanted to show her his lover. That's why they walked toward an ocean/sea until the guy said "There we are." It ended at this point. All of us were really curious about the lover, complaining that it suddenly ended. But I already made guesses: The ocean was his lover figuratively. Or maybe... hm, there was a sunset and ocean. It all seemed pretty gay, so... Gay?! Dolphins! His lover has to be a freaking dolphin! And I was damn right. It WAS a freaking dolphin. Why even... goddess. But just for the blonde guy named "Tweedledee" I'd watch the movie. Without knowing anything about the series 8'D
Last but not least we watched "Kämpfer" as an anime. Well, what can I say about this random shounen? The jokes. Holy shit, the jokes. They joked about the voice actors of their plushies because the plushies are the ones informing them that they're Kämpfers and so on. Spongebob Squarepants and "Attack No.  1" main character Mila. Our trio kept on joking about this the whole evening.
Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion didn't make it any better. I mean I'm a Suzaku fan girl and when he appeared as SPINzaku I was done. Fangirling aaaall the time, hugging Z-nee's leg and screaming his name. (The atmosphere made me drunk...?) And I still dislike Lelouch sooo much. And C.C. And everyone except Suzaku.

While we finished watching anime with that, we continued with watching a guy baking a Christmas cake. As I already mentioned, Hungary-sama, who's a total pro if it comes to baking, kept on complaining about him not knowing things, naming things wrong and about the kitchen itself. She should make some cupcakes for
me. Hers are... wow. Just wow. I wonder if Master can compete with her （・ｗ・）
And then it was time for a super huge dinner.

Pizza, sushi, more pizza, mini pizza, buns with cheese and/or any kind of sausage... And we were only 4 people. I ate almost all of the mini pizza, at least half a tuna pizza... I was stuffed, but I kept on eating more o(>▽<)o

After going back upstairs we played the UNO card game, Super Smash Bros. Brawl, ate the sushi... And time just flew by. It was midnight already when we decided to play Old Maid with 3 different card sets, a different UNO game, the original one and then... a board game. In German it was called "Malefiz". Duh, this game made all of us damn aggressive and we sat there playing it for 2 hours. It was 3.30 a.m. when finally Hungary-sama won this shit. You can't imagine how frustrating it was. After that we all felt absolutely whacked but weren't tired. Still our group went down to the bathroom doing some business while I ate another piece of pizza.

The situation was just so stupid. While other people'd get drunk (17th birthday, duh!) we played board games until that time. It was so hilarious imagining how you'd tell this to your class mates or other people. "Woah, this weekend we had a gaming evening! We played the whole night and didn't even get to sleep. Aren't we hardcore? We played  a BOARD GAME."

I can't remember what we did after that, but when Z-nee and I went to bed (we shared a room while Azu-nyan and Hungary-sama shared another one), we talked for quite a while about our RPGs, dogs, parents... marrying... It was 5.30 a.m. when we kept silent and tried to sleep.

Z-nee woke me up at 9.30 a.m. and I felt even more tired than before. 4 hours of sleep on a weekend was probably a new record.

We got up, ate more cake for breakfast (I ate muffins) with cocoa (love that shit), played "Panic in Zombieland" and "Pokémon Rumble" on Wii, ate lunch (fish sticks!) packed our stuff and drove to my home after letting Hungary-sama off. I quickly brushed my teeth (haven't done this in a long time ＿|￣|○), threw 4 3D glasses in my bag, mooched money from my mum and made her drive us to the cinema where we met up with Hungary-sama. (We replaced Azu-nyan with my brother.)

We came to watch the movie "Wreck-it Ralph" I had been looking forward to for a really long time. Before the movie started, a short movie called "Paperman" from Disney was on. I don't really know what hit me. But the story was touching. It was animated in black and white, only the lipstick of the female main character was red. When the paper planes started leading them and the classical music started playing, I broke down and started crying like a baby. Especially when my brother told me he got goosebumps. I was disappoint, asking myself why *I* didn't get goosebumps because I knew how much it touched me. But then it just happened. I cried and made ugly faces.

Then the movie started. My brother and me freaked out about every detail, every video game (character) we recognized. Besides parents we also were the oldest visitors - probably the only ones who got the jokes though. So many insiders the small children probably didn't get. And then the credits of the movie. With this this song. And this one. I just sat there, singing along. I love it. I already told my mum that I want the soundtrack of this song as my Christmas gift from her. That and the two train group tickets.

Back home I ate a snack and later also dinner because I was really hungry after eating not much for lunch (wanted to have space for popcorn but in the end I wasn't hungry for that).

And then I went to bed at 10 p.m. (quite early compared to my last night) and fall asleep at 11 p.m.

But back to Christmas gifts... I finally have ideas for everything and ordered the last stuff I can't afford in normal shops online. Sadly, I was 3 € short so I spontaneously had to change my plan and buy different things. The people'll still appreciate it but I'm not sure if they won't be disappointed now that I got their expectations up with complaining about Christmas gifts being better than birthday gifts ○|￣|＿

We'll see. That's all I can say about that now. I mean I still got 19 days.

And with that we're getting to the last point.

A few days ago a person from the organisation called again. She asked a few questions about the explanation from the neurologist but yush, it's finally done!

I still need to get the money stuff done though (ﾉ∇･､)

NEED. TO. DO. THAT. As soon as possible, time's running, this Saturday I'll travel to the capital and meet other host students like Azu-nyan. I'm her company so to say. I won't know anyone and I'll probably be forever alone, but yay, smelling big city air once in a while is nice I guess （´ヘ｀；）

#28: Life Update 10 % complete

Last week or the one before that my mum faxed the explanation to the organisation and also went to her tax adviser for my scholarship. Now I have to make an application for Federal Law on Support in Education. It's a special thing where they're basically supporting your education with money. Hopefully this'll be my pocket money in Japan （￣ー￣； )

Another thing I got ready is my application for exemption for next year. I don't know how much earlier the school wants to see this, but January is not that far, so I'll better hand it in this week. Hopefully – because actually I'm not feeling that well. Yesterday my cold struck me and infected my ear. I've been kinda waiting for this. Usually colds never go without an ear infection for me.

I swear, I lied awake for about an hour, feeling the pulse in my ear because it was that swollen. This morning it felt even worse, really hurt, so I convinced my mum to let me stay home. I tidied up my desktop, messed it up again because I was searching things, but yeah, as I already mentioned I got the application for exemption ready. Oh, and the report of the neurologist! I wanted to do that two weeks ago, but the report didn't arrive until last week. So finaaaaaally, doctor stuff done (if I don't have to go to the doctor because of my ear). (_　_|||)

Somewhen in December I'll also go and buy tickets for my trip in January. They're expensive, but the earlier I buy, the cheaper it is. Okay, yeah, December is not early at all, but my parents, who'll pay for that trip across the country to the place for the one-week-preparation-seminar, didn't have the money for this earlier than that.

So far to my preparations. The rest of this blog post will now deal with private
stuff |*￣^￣)ﾉ彡

Let's start with the bad news first. Yeah, cold, ear infection, you know that, but something even worse. My. Glasses. Broke. Only the frame though. The glasses itself didn't fall apart but it could have happened if I'd have used it more. The culprit was probably the pocket of my coat where I kept it while I was in school. No, I don't have a case for them, that's why (´；д；`) Back home my mum tried to fix it but once the hard and long operation was done, she said it'd be too dangerous because the tension on the glasses would be too high. Instead of risking that I'll just leave these awesome Persona 4 glasses in my room as deco...

But the bad news won't stop here. Yesterday while applying nail enamel (dark green on my left hand, intense red on my right one) it happened: A tiny drop of red enamel dripped on my mousepad (the Vocaloid one you always see on my pictures). Anyone a tip how to remove it without bleaching the mousepad? Does enamel remover work? Goddammit, I'm not girly enough to know that. （　￣д￣;）

With that Christmas is getting closer. Just less than a month （・ｗ・）

I'm no Christmas person at all, really, this tradition is rather annoying for me. It has gone that far that I started considering the gifts as the only pleasing thing.

But this year will be different. Not only am I looking forward to gifts this year, also I want to see the faces of my friends and family when they get my gifts for them. Although the best thing about Christmas'll start on the last Christmas day~ (EXACTLY one month from now. I'm so exited! ヾ(≧∇≦)ゞ)

Once Christmas is over I'll post pictures of the gifts I got and gifted here. Can't do it earlier because I know the friends I'll gift something are reading this (¬д¬。)

Next event on my list is the birthday of my best friend this Saturday. Fortunately her birthday is this time exactly on Saturday, so I don't have to bother giving her the gift in school.

...And somehow people always get cooler Christmas gifts. I don't know why and how, but my Christmas gifts for people are always cooler and more expensive than birthday
gifts Σ(￣ロ￣|||) But people, don't complain. Gift is gift, right? Right?

#25: THE SILENCE IS FAKE. Like the cake.

Yeah. I didn't disappear. I'm still here, doing small things for my year in Japaaan. They're really small, but hey, it's something.
I got my passport this Monday and instantly sent it to the organisation via mail - the woman I had to send it to wasn't there, so the next day I sent it to another one, no problem.
While I was on my convention weekend I got a letter from them as well, sending me a copy of the doctor stuff because they needed an explanation for some things (and because they couldn't read it). That has to wait until Tuesday though because one of the explanation they want has to be made by my neurologist which I'll go see Tuesday.
I really feel like there wasn't a week the past few months where I didn't go to a doctor. But I'll be finally done then (I hope at least)! ; v ;
Surviiiiiiive, Envy-chan, survive for your dreeeeeeam! *^*

#22: Now for real. Finally.

This morning was extremely stressy although it was supposed to be my freetime cause I got the first two classes off. I woke up, really tired, eating, dressing up and leaving for the doctor to get my vaccination (my arm still hurts ; - ; ). While I was vaccinated, my mum realized she forgot my vaccination record. Genius mum. Got the vaccination nevertheless.
Our next tour was the bank to get money for medicaments. On our way back we stopped home, I ran in, got the record and we drove back to the doctor where I got a paper they missed to add as well (we waited a little too long). So we hurried to the car because it was almost time to go to school. But then we decided to get the medication first. We got them and hurried home, where Azu was already ready to go to school. Luckily she didn't go without me and waited patiently until I finished getting my stuff together. I think we never walked this fast before to school together. As always, we didn't speak a single word.
After school (I skipped lunch, yay!) and begging my brother to come with me, we went to the post office (to finally send the fucking medical documents. Done!!) and to the bank. We (only me, but we did it for him as well) needed to register our interest in our bankbook. My mum told me it was because the organisation send stuff for the scholarship and now she needed to send in my balance. Fuck, I'm really afraid that they'll ask for all the saved money there. It's not much. Less than 1/10 of the money the whole trip costs, but I basically saved this money there my whole life. Right, I could work to earn this stuff back, but I don't have time for this. Right now, I don't have any time to do a job. I mean I wouldn't even have many options because I'm still too young. Most jobs are simply for people >18. I really need to concentrate on school more, and doing a job after school won't help me with this at all. Money is nice and all, but education is what'll make me earn more money |D

#21: Finally!

Phew, so today I was visiting the doctor (hopefully the second last time) to get back my medical documents. Tomorrow I'm luckily free the first two classes, so I'll use this time to get a suggested vaccination and to post these documents. I'll pray that it'll arrive tomorrow and they won't kick my ass too much. I know I did shit with doing everything this late (and all of my doctors filled this out in German, not English as it was ordered OTL), but ohmygoddess, finally. After this, all that's left from the list will be the passport which I'll get on 5th November and send instantly.
I'm really glad the organisation is so super friendly but at the same time, this might be what's making me procrastinate (although I feel really guilty).
And then I have to hand in an application for exemption in school for the meeting in January. I better not do that too late.
A minor thing I have to do is to pick a notebook x'D My parents want to buy me one for Japan, but I don't really know which one. I want a coloured one. So no black, grey or white. Best would be pink. No, I don't like pink, but all my technical devices are pink and I want to continue that, just for fun. I already picked one actually, but I want certain graphics and so much stuff that the price'd be the one of a Mac. And my parents can't have that, can they? û.u So I said I'll sacrifice some of my saved money. But there's still time to go. So no need to hurry. First priority is other stuff!

#20: Forgot what happened

So it's been a while since I posted... I wanted to do it already 2 days ago, but then I procrastinated and what-not-so-on.
But to keep everything short: Everything for Japan is done except the medical documents. My doctor was bitching around (my mum complained much more than I did) and I really need to send them, but I can't earlier than Monday because obviously he didn't fill the stuff out yet and argh... Oh right, the passport, too. But I won't get it earlier than the 5th November.
School started being a bitch, but therefor my social life is going quite well. No, I'm NOT choosing social life over school, it just happens besides everything.
Things in my mind right now are a new notebook, Christmas and a surprise for a friend. (He he ❤)

Sorry if my post seems rather lame this time. I don't know, I'm kinda exhausted. More will follow soon anyway.
*crawls away*

#17: All you need is a kick in the ass

What a sick day. Did homework until 1.30 a.m., played Pokémon Black 2  for another hour and got 4 hours of sleep in total. I knew I would do this as soon as school started and that's why I wanted more vacation.
No use, my mum woke me up at 6.30 a.m., I got up to get breakfast, got ready for school and eventually left  our flat with Azu-nyan. I had one class until I got two free classes. Well, 4 because my French teacher wasn't in school. (But I didn't learn that French dialogue, so fuck yeah >:D )
Normally I would have gone home, but Z-nee and me had an appointed talk with our tutor for some time. I told him everything, my non-existing motivation for school, my procrastination, my trip to Japan... He was very understanding, but strict at the same. He clearly told me that I should do better for my dreams, where I could get inspiration from and to get over my bad sleeping habit. I knew everything of it, but still this gave me the final kick. Then we went to my place and I did/finished German homework until we went back to school for the last three classes

Home for a not even few minutes mum and me went to the general practitioner to get the last stuff done - the medical documents. The doctor only took the documents and told me I should call Wednesday again, but at least that meant I'd get it done. After that I went somewhere else with my mum, but when I arrived at home, I started doing my homework. Not instantly and without breaks, but so much faster and more intensive than usually. That's my tutors work. But thanks to Ouji-kun as well. I appreciate your help so much ; v ;
Tomorrow I'll be back earlier, but I wanted to do a photo shooting with my brother and then I have to go to the physiologist. And don't forget about homework. (And it gets dark early, too! ; - ; ) Homework comes first though (Please, don't break my while, other selves. Please. For my own sake.).

#16: Step by step

Every time I get another mail, I can see Japan getting closer. Although I got a safe place in this program, it's still too unreal for me to actually realize it. But it's definitely going to happen.
The day after the last post I went to the town hall with my mum to get a passport for me. When we drew a number and sat down, my mum suddenly asked me whether I had the passport photos with me.

• "What? No, I don't! Why me?"
• "In this case we can leave."
• "Why am I supposed to think of everything?"

So yeah, we really went back home, got the photos and went there again. But we had a really bad argument on the first way back because her sarcasm (which I'd normally not take seriously) hurt me. Or rather it didn't hurt me, it pissed me of badly and so for a short moment, I took out my anger on her. It didn't get any better until we finally sat in the office and I was supposed to give my fingerprint. My mum, who didn't know you were supposed to do this, was amazed like a little child. And this is what made the tension-filled atmosphere loosen up. Luckily, really. With this done the first thing I did back home was going to bed. After another short night I needed more sleep. And I got enough of that, although I had a back headache when I woke up. (Cause is my spine and I'm even going to a physiologist.) After I woke up and my parents return, they had a letter for me from the organisation. It was full of information about the whole trip in general and as well facts about Japan. Was too much too read, so I didn't. Most important was the announcement for a preparation meeting in January which is necessary to attend. Talking to Master about this was like something hit me and I finally realized, that I'd really go to Japan. No easy way back, even if I wanted to.
Next and future goals I'll set myself until Japan: Send the documents until Wednesday, enjoy a certain anime convention in November (3 day ticket, yeeeees!), celebrate belated Christmas with the people I love and last but not least go to the preparation meeting and a Japan festival in January. Going step by step this way will keep me going, especially in school~

2 days since Pokémon Black & White 2 came out. My mum finally gave it to us yesterday. (She gets ALL the Pokémon games for my brother and me, but I didn't expect her to get it right on the release date.) But before she did, she made me do some of the chores, while I made them search a charm of me. It's a charm I had twice, but the second one disappeared mysteriously. Anyway, so although I would have to do lots of homework, I gave in and started playing Pokémon Black 2.

Great game, really, even better than the first, but gah... Why the fuck aren't the legendary Pokémon reverted this time as well? Why do I get a black Kyurem in the black edition? I just hate that. I loved Reshiram and all the other black exclusive Pokémon/locations (the Black Town! *^*) and now they made this. I mean I'll trade with my brother, who has White 2, anyway, but I just can't stop complaining about this. Never. But gftdhtrjwzjuk, N will be back in this game! *Q*

#15: About relief and personal rewards

Yesterday I got a call from a woman who works for the organisation I'm going to Japan with. She told me everything arrived and was really good (especially my letter for the host family! *^*) but she'd like to have a better photo of my family. The photo I sent showed us playing a board game together but you couldn't see the faces of everyone. The woman wanted to keep it though since it showed our family life very good. She suggested to send the other picture with the medical documents together and I told her this would be no problem. It wasn't after all (if you ignore the fact that we have no proper family picture and we had to take one, ahahaha).
But yeah, this was such a relief for me- Not only that it arrived in time but that it also was a good outcome. I'm proud of myself. It's bad that I procrastinated but my special skill - working under high pressure - only shows when the dead line is close. OTL

The evening I invited my brother to watch the movies with me. I already watched "In a Distant Time" earlier (seriously, I'd love to play the visual novel of it... Tenma, Tomomasa and Abe no Yasuaki were so... my favourites.) and well, for 2 episodes it was okay. They were only OVAs and the story may have been a little confusing, but it was nice. You can't make more out of dating games than that. But yeah, and I didn't want to watch Memoirs of a Geisha again although it's an awesome movie because I already saw it 3 times and my brother would probably think it's too boring, so we went for Gantz.
With crisps and drink and jellybabies we sat on top of the bunk bed in my room and watched the two Gantz movies in a row. Almost. Sometimes we made breaks so I could go and answer people on Skype >v<;; To summon it up: It was hella awesome. The last Japanese movie I watched with my brother was "Higanjima" (worst vampire movie ever) so we were sceptical since the movie was full of effects. But it turned out awesome and although I never watched the anime/read the manga I think it might have been very close. The effects were really good and my brother was flashed by the ending. I could imagine this already, but it was stunning nevertheless. One of the best live actions I've seen so far. (All the time I thought about Art class, like "Damn, I drew their suits wrong!")

And today, last thing for this post, my game arrived. It's nothing special, but to get the game boxed as new for only 3,42 € was worth it. It's pretty fun as well.

In the game you're playing the agents who are helping people who need... well, help. It's a rhythm game, so just tap on popping up numbers when the time has come for that. The first thing I thought of while playing this was "osu!" . Seriously, the same stuff. But it's a lot easier because of the smaller screen and hands are faster than computer mouses. I also thought that there would be some stupid game music, but it's real music. Sung by different artists, but still. There are songs like "Y.M.C.A", "Sk8er Boi", "Marterial Girl" and "I was born to love you". I was really amazed by that x'D I'm playing all of these via hi-fi and my brother is like: "Dude, now turn this shit off! >:C"
I will never stop ❤

P.S.: Since I know there are people watching: Got the message from the online store that the Christmas gifts were sent |3

#13: I did it!

It was such a pain yesterday. I was basically on the road all the morning and afternoon. But I sent it and for now I can rest a little.

• Online form ✓
• Statement of agreement ✓
• Medical documents
• Letter for host family ✓
• Photos✓
• School documents ✓
• Passport copy

All the stuff that has to be sent via snail mail (except the medical documents) were sent yesterday. All the online stuff is uploaded as well, so now I just need to wait for next week when I can go to the doctor.

Goddammit, my mum paid 14€ for 6 passport photos.

A propos money. Since my other friend (not officially, but we won't go after all/now I can't anymore) canceled the shopping trip to Berlin, I threw myself in the arms of online shopping sites.

I made some really hot deals *^* There was for example this offer where you can buy 4 DVDs for 20€. Not just some random DVDs, no. If it was that way I'd never bought something. But those DVDs were anime/Japanese movies. And I bought

• Memoirs of a Geisha
• Gantz
• Gantz 2: Perfect Answer
• In a Distant Time

First three are movies/live actions while the last is some shoujo anime movie adaption from a video game. It's hard to find the real English title since it was never released there D:

Another thing I bought is a new game for my lonely DS. I mean I still have tons of unfinished games here, but not the motivation to play them. I stopped playing them for a reason after all. (THE FUCKING BOSS/whatever WAS TOO HARD.) The only games I play naturally are Dragon Quest IX, Pokémon (any DS title) and- Oh wait, that's it.

But that's still not it. On another site I also bought Christmas gifts. Yep, I'm crazy, but I didn't want to wait any longer (I bought gifts for 2 people. So at least 2 are still missing.) because it seemed like a good deal to me and who knows if they'd have had it still later... Can't wait to see their faces! This is definitely going to be the best Christmas vacation ever. There will be great gifts and great people. Haaaah, I just love my people. ❤

#12: Stress³

I deserve to go to hell for procrastinating so much.
Yesterday I finally decided ton intensively start filling out the stuff for Japan. Thanks to Master-chan for getting mad with me because of this, I feel like I needed that OTL
Anyway, so what is there to do?

• Online form 
• Statement of agreement ✓
• Medical documents
• Letter for host family ✓
• Photos
• School documents ✓
• Passport copy

All of them (except the online form) have to be sent in via snail mail, some (letter for the host family, photos) have to be uploaded online as well.
Photos are basically done, I just need to get 6 portrait photos of me. I don't have a passport yet, still need to make an application for this, but that doesn't need to be sent until tomorrow. Also I asked to send in the medical document later because  my appointment isn't earlier than next week and this week my doctor's on vacation (damn fate, really). My dentist already did his job (this morning I went there and got an examination ahead of time), all that's missing now is the long examination of the general practitioner. Last but not least the online form is no problem, only difficult thing for me is that it has to be filled out in English. My father for example has an occupation where there exists no English translation. But I'll get it done, no sweat. This is my dream after all and in order to fulfill it I even risk depression like yesterday.
I don't even know how it could happen, but I found myself suddenly almost crying and being terribly depressed after I worked for about 2 hours on this stuff.  But my mood got better when I called for a veeeery long time with a friend. Okay, you couldn't really call this a call/real conversation, but it made me really happy to hear at least his voice. Ha ha, the fan girl in me awoke when he talked to his friend. (It's obvious who's uke and who's seme.)
With that said, I'm off to do the last bit of my work. Okay, but not right now, but definitely today *^*
**HARDWORKER MODE ACTIVATED**
**INITIATE CLOSING OF ALL SHOPPING TABS IN BACKGROUND**

#10: Procrastinated too much

Ohmygoddess, just checked my online paper stuff for Japan again. All of these are due to 19th October. Worst part of it: I have to visit doctors and it's already Friday, means I can't go until Monday. Wednesday is the dead line and that means it has to arrive there already.
Filling out the rest is no problem, but the doctor stuff is what's worrying me. It's not just a simple paper, it's a fucking long one. And all has to be done Monday. I PROCRASTINATED WAY TOO MUCH. OTL
I just hope they won't cancel me from the program if I fail to send it in time ; - ;
Better gonna send an e-mail later to ask if that's the case... Sheesh, I could really bite my ass because of this.

So, today I stayed up until 5.30 in the morning, slept until my mum woke me up for lunch and went back to sleep until 3 p.m. It was really nice since I didn't know what to do anyway with my day.
Same for tomorrow. I wanted to meet up with a friend, but there wasn't a message yet when. I'll see tomorrow if we'll meet. If not, I'll spend a nice day online... Well, like everyday >v< Right, Ouji-kun~❤?

#2: Help, please?

Uff, so now that I got a place for Japan, all the paper works started. I have to finish at 10th October and it will be a lot work until then. Worst is that my family can't help me because it has to be done in English and they suck and they... jbndfjkbnjnhthj
Anyway, so there is this piece of paper where I need to convert my German marks into American ones. No problem so far, but now there are two subjects and I don't know what they would be in English.

1. A subject about religion. But not only religion, also talking about social values, drugs, death, luck... A little psychological. An American friend told me it wouldn't be "Religion" since not many schools have that subject. He suggested "Civics"...

2. A subject where we talked about how machines and robots work, career, university and even did practical work in jobs we could pick. My American friend went for "Career".

If you can help me somehow, please do, my time is running >v<;;

P.S.: Since I obviously can't work with... a divided blog, I'll just use labels. "Preparations for Japan", "Japan", "Unrelated private stuff" and "Otaku stuff" will be it I guess. So if someone doesn't want to read the otaku stuff, look for the labels.