#30: My way of treating people

Wednesday I talked to Z-nee (OMG amazing, right? Talking to your best friend - I might be the first person ever to do this in fact) about upcoming Christmas. When I once again claimed, how much better my Christmas gifts always are (not pushing it, I was just whining about that), she (a seme who doesn't like to take much, especially because it feels like she owes me one) seemed to feel uneasy about this. Of course I understood that, particularly when she said she thinks birthday gifts once a year are enough and if she had to gift all of her friends she couldn't possibly do it because she also has a big family.
But seriously, getting things back is not my intention when gifting. Yeah, all the seme friends (and I have a lot of them) I got will have a problem with this but I don't care, ukes love to make their semes happy! ❤
That's my true intention after all. I just want to make people smile with this. I don't expect anything back, seeing that they consider my gift is more than I could expect or even want. I mean sure, I do LOVE gifts but moreover I'm a laugh maker, even if I'm sad and depressive an awful lot.
Or it's because of my sarcastic and teasing nature. Strangers won't understand this but I used to treat friends in a sarcastic way, act rude although I didn't mean it like that just to be a little funny. Yeah, maybe I'm exaggerating a little but you could say it seemed like I didn't treasure them right. I did though, I just showed it in a rather tsundere way. Maybe I'm a bad judge but I think this changed about a year ago.
I'm still a sarcastic person but I'm showing my love for my close friends in a gay way more openly, hugging them sometimes even although I don't really like to hug if not necessary. (Is it weird that I'm a cuddly person though? Well, let's just say I don't like to hug people not close to me like... class mates or "good" friends.) Pfffff and I'm still asking Z-nee casually everyday if she wants to marry me. She always rejects me, but yesterday she said the following:

• "I will marry you at the latest when you graduated."

Okay, she meant at the earliest, but still. Made my day, ohohoho. Besides my best friend fake sidekick there's also Hungary-sama. I rarely have any classes with her (actually only one and this is Politics D: ) so we only meet each other in breaks if we ever do and then we're all just happy to see each other. Like we three. Z-nee, Hungary-sama and me. My harem. (Am I the only uke around? That's probably why ; v ; )
I'm really looking forward to this weekend. The three of us (and Azu-nyan, we need a mascot after all) will celebrate Z-nee's 17th birthday with cake and probably too much food, (Last year we had sushi, pizza and mini pizzas if I remember correctly. We ate till our stomachs hurt and I swear, we didn't even eat all of it. There was still so much left...) followed by a sleep-over and going to the cinema to watch "Wreck-it Ralph" before it's actually at the cinemas.
Dat movie. Gamer movie. Can't wait to see it. Really. I've been looking forward to it so long and now I'm gonna see it earlier even >v<
And with that awesome weekend also the best month of the year will start: December! *O*
The most important dates'll be 1st, 2nd, 24th, 26th, 27th, 28th and 29th December. I'm looking forward to them the most. Maybe you already know/guessed why, if not maybe I'll write that here (or hint it).

Next blog post probably follows Sunday after I saw the movie including pictures of Z-nee's birthday gifts.
Oh, and I'm also planning to change my blog design a little more, adding a picture and an explaining page. Just check it soon, I'm working on it.

#29: Starting to feel better

When I woke up this morning, the pain in my ear was gone and didn't come back the whole day until now. Let's hope it won't till the evening.
Actually I wanted to go and see the doctor this morning but due to the loss of pain, I didn't think it was necessary. I guess I'm having some liquid in my ear because of the cold but with an infrared lamp this could be cured. Anyhow, I still got to do school stuff so I got no time to sit there, blinded and unable to do anything for a rather long time...
Since I'll write a test tomorrow (in Math class, yay!) I'll better be fit then. I don't want to miss more classes, working to make up for this sucks ; 3 ;

#28: Life Update 10 % complete

Last week or the one before that my mum faxed the explanation to the organisation and also went to her tax adviser for my scholarship. Now I have to make an application for Federal Law on Support in Education. It's a special thing where they're basically supporting your education with money. Hopefully this'll be my pocket money in Japan （￣ー￣； )

Another thing I got ready is my application for exemption for next year. I don't know how much earlier the school wants to see this, but January is not that far, so I'll better hand it in this week. Hopefully – because actually I'm not feeling that well. Yesterday my cold struck me and infected my ear. I've been kinda waiting for this. Usually colds never go without an ear infection for me.

I swear, I lied awake for about an hour, feeling the pulse in my ear because it was that swollen. This morning it felt even worse, really hurt, so I convinced my mum to let me stay home. I tidied up my desktop, messed it up again because I was searching things, but yeah, as I already mentioned I got the application for exemption ready. Oh, and the report of the neurologist! I wanted to do that two weeks ago, but the report didn't arrive until last week. So finaaaaaally, doctor stuff done (if I don't have to go to the doctor because of my ear). (_　_|||)

Somewhen in December I'll also go and buy tickets for my trip in January. They're expensive, but the earlier I buy, the cheaper it is. Okay, yeah, December is not early at all, but my parents, who'll pay for that trip across the country to the place for the one-week-preparation-seminar, didn't have the money for this earlier than that.

So far to my preparations. The rest of this blog post will now deal with private
stuff |*￣^￣)ﾉ彡

Let's start with the bad news first. Yeah, cold, ear infection, you know that, but something even worse. My. Glasses. Broke. Only the frame though. The glasses itself didn't fall apart but it could have happened if I'd have used it more. The culprit was probably the pocket of my coat where I kept it while I was in school. No, I don't have a case for them, that's why (´；д；`) Back home my mum tried to fix it but once the hard and long operation was done, she said it'd be too dangerous because the tension on the glasses would be too high. Instead of risking that I'll just leave these awesome Persona 4 glasses in my room as deco...

But the bad news won't stop here. Yesterday while applying nail enamel (dark green on my left hand, intense red on my right one) it happened: A tiny drop of red enamel dripped on my mousepad (the Vocaloid one you always see on my pictures). Anyone a tip how to remove it without bleaching the mousepad? Does enamel remover work? Goddammit, I'm not girly enough to know that. （　￣д￣;）

With that Christmas is getting closer. Just less than a month （・ｗ・）

I'm no Christmas person at all, really, this tradition is rather annoying for me. It has gone that far that I started considering the gifts as the only pleasing thing.

But this year will be different. Not only am I looking forward to gifts this year, also I want to see the faces of my friends and family when they get my gifts for them. Although the best thing about Christmas'll start on the last Christmas day~ (EXACTLY one month from now. I'm so exited! ヾ(≧∇≦)ゞ)

Once Christmas is over I'll post pictures of the gifts I got and gifted here. Can't do it earlier because I know the friends I'll gift something are reading this (¬д¬。)

Next event on my list is the birthday of my best friend this Saturday. Fortunately her birthday is this time exactly on Saturday, so I don't have to bother giving her the gift in school.

...And somehow people always get cooler Christmas gifts. I don't know why and how, but my Christmas gifts for people are always cooler and more expensive than birthday
gifts Σ(￣ロ￣|||) But people, don't complain. Gift is gift, right? Right?

#27: I choose you, PERSONA

Even if you're feeling really sick, the day starts much better if you wake up and the first thing you see when you look out of the window is fog.
I really love fog. First of all it's because it makes everything look more mystical, kinda adventurous and second is Persona 4. If you haven't heard of it now, back up. Leave. NOW!!!!!!111einseinself
Nah, but yeah, it was so awesome that the fog didn't leave the whole day. Just like in Persona 4, when people were about to die. (If it's foggy in the real world, the fog in the world inside the TV would have cleared up and the shadows'd attack the people caught up in there.) That gave me the urge to put on my glasses who're resembling the main character of the game.

He's my favourite although he doesn't really speak a word. (By the way I don't like the anime and don't agree on the name but YES I do love Skittles. I prefer the sour ones though 8D)
A female online friend made me. After I first loved Yosuke and she came up with Ringo... ô.o
"OMG BEATLES, FUCK YOSUKE I LOVE THE MAIN CHARACTER." 'cause that's how I roll.
Back to the story: Suddenly I remembered that I'm not wearing my glasses in school (no strenght, so pure face decoration) so people wouldn't ask dumb questions. I had to drop the thought and silently admire the fog without being super cool and an otaku ; v ;

#26: I didn't even miss you

And yet you still came back. What's wrong with you? Didn't you get it when I tried telling you I didn't want you?
Sheesh, now you're just making my life really annoying and hard.  You're giving me the worst headaches and even sleep won't make me forget about you because you'll simply come back the next day as if nothing happened.
Even the tea which is supposed to relax me doesn't help at all. You're just here destroying everything.
I really thought you'd be gone when I came back from the convention. And you really were for some time until you decided to come back.
I hate you.
I hate you so much.
Cold - just fuck you and go infect someone else.

#25: THE SILENCE IS FAKE. Like the cake.

Yeah. I didn't disappear. I'm still here, doing small things for my year in Japaaan. They're really small, but hey, it's something.
I got my passport this Monday and instantly sent it to the organisation via mail - the woman I had to send it to wasn't there, so the next day I sent it to another one, no problem.
While I was on my convention weekend I got a letter from them as well, sending me a copy of the doctor stuff because they needed an explanation for some things (and because they couldn't read it). That has to wait until Tuesday though because one of the explanation they want has to be made by my neurologist which I'll go see Tuesday.
I really feel like there wasn't a week the past few months where I didn't go to a doctor. But I'll be finally done then (I hope at least)! ; v ;
Surviiiiiiive, Envy-chan, survive for your dreeeeeeam! *^*

#24: Compact convention report

2nd November 2012

So it started a little chaotic but ended fantastic. But let's start from the beginning, shall we?

Right after school, I hurried out of Math class, jumped with Azu into the car and we got driven to the train station where the ticket machine wouldn't  work properly first and my mum almost freaked out and made me panic as well. But in the end we did make it on time and yeah... While the German post is really awesome and fast, the "Deutsche Bahn" (German train service whatever) isn't. Due to some stuff with brakes, we were 20 minutes late in the end. But not only that, we also took the bus later in the wrong direction, so all in all, we arrived much later than originally planned and I missed the show group I wanted to see - the reason we instantly took the train after school.

We watched the showgroup that was on stage after them though - a mix of Pokémon and Cinderella. (Ohgoddess, why, the Psyducks danced Gangnam Style. My brain is forever damaged. OTL)

After that we walked a bit around and I was kinda searching for a certain German artist I was fan of. Okay, it was more because of his videos on YouTube, but he is such an awesome personality, really entertaining. He wasn't where he was last year, so I was a little disappointed, but I knew he said he would be there, so I trusted this. And then I almost passed him in the corner where shops had their table. I didn't expect him to be there, so I was in a shock state for a short moment. I decided to go to him the day after that because I forgot some stuff and Hungary-sama, who'd come the day after that, would bring that stuff.

Later we went to the real shopping area (I spotted Christmas gifts etc |3) and also back to the main stage, where some kind of cosplay guessing happened. They got a word and had to act to it - the people were all so cool. After that the opening happened. Wow. It was so amazing. I can't describe it, but it was really awesome. Same for the J-Pop concert of a band called "bless4" after that. Honestly, I dislike J-Pop or any Asian pop at all. Fuck me, all kind of pops. But I don't know, this was really cool, hearing it live and all. I think I'm gonna buy their CD and let it get signed when it's time for that.

That was the last thing we did. Okay, after that we went back to the shopping stuff, looked at some things and had simply fun, but we were tired. Yeah, back at the place we'd stay for the weekend we fall onto the couch and rested and ate a really spicy hot dog. (I'm very, very sensitive for this stuff - my tongue was burning.)

3rd November 2012

Saturday started with a fantastic showgroup. The best showgroup I've seen. Last year they did "Avatar - The last airbender" with tons of awesome effects and this year it was awesome as well. "Sengoku Basara" with awesome weapons and at one point I almost cried even. It was so sad ; - ;

After that we went to meet and get together with Hungary-sama. Like her name says she was in her Hungary (Hetalia) cosplay. Over that day she got into a lot of talks with other cosplayers cause of that. (Kinda makes me proud because I brought her into that scene, ohohoho~) After we met my boss who gave me another manga to review (makes 4 left to reviewif we ignore a forgotten one), we went to buy onigiri with Azu and after that... The moment came. The moment, where we decided to visit the German artist I was a fan of. Hugi. First of all, I bought a book of him I didn't have and then everything started.

"I see you have a very good taste!", he said. It wasn't the first time I heard him

say this to a customer, but still, it amused me. I asked him to sign this and another comic, gave him the other already signed ones so he wouldn't draw the same. And he didn't. After drawing and talking with Hungary-sama about "The Walking Dead", I asked him to sign two photos. It was kinda cute that he showed everything around to the other artists at his table - first his own drawings (which were a year old) and then my photos because there were people from this table in the background. After he signed it in silver I also asked for another photo with him and he stood next to me when Hungary-sama took one of us and... Too bad I can't meet him next year ; - ; 

After getting this also done we headed towards the shops. Not only did we buy the birthday/Christmas presents we spotted the day before, we also collected stamps with which we could win tickets for the convention next year. When the day ended, two of them were still missing, but anyway. At 4.15 p.m. we went to another showgroup, but left after 30 minutes already because it was really... bad. That's why we decided to go to the game room. Oh yes, the game room. We went around, saw people playing DDR, beat'em'up games, and every kind of game that was at least a little Japanese. I really felt like home. Fufufu, waiting for the Tekken Tag Tournament 2 contest to start, the three of us played Mario Kart. Long talk short: I won almost all the matches after getting warmed up a little.

As soon as the game (Tekken Tag Tournament 2) was in, we took places and waited for it to load. More and more people started popping up and I made Hungary-sama write her and my name (first she write our embarrrassing full names but luckily she changed it later to our online names) on the list of the participaters. What we didn't know until then: This list was for successors. So we were too fucking late. That didn't matter in the end though: Watching the others playing was entertaining as fuck. Like REALLY exciting and stuff. The atmosphere was really awesome and everyone felt alike. After the tournament finished (...you could win awesome T-Shirts and videogames. So wonderful videogames ; - ; I really hate myself.) Hungary-sama and me played against each other. I fought against her with my favourite characters Alisa and Lars and won most of the time, not always (n00bs and their stupid luck, pfffff), but at least one round when I lost. I kept throwing her with Alisa-chan. She's such a cool character *^* (And sexy although she's a robot |3)

Then we hurried to get back to the main stage to see "bless4" one more time. My boss told me the concert would be even more awesome than the one yesterday was and although I doubted that first, it really was in the end. They sang some more songs than they did the day before. I especially liked that they sang "Cha-la-head-cha-la". They told the audience they were asked that in the press conference so they did. And ohmygoddess, first the sisters did the fusion pose, then all of the siblings did the Ginyu Force pose. It was so freaking epic. In the end, Hungary-sama and me bought the CD. I was unsure until then, but this concert made me want to even more. But that was enough for the day. We took our "taxi" to get back to where we were staying for this weekend. It was almost 11 p.m. when we arrived there and my headache was really bad and I was tired, but I had Internet, so I didn't even think about sleeping yet. Instead I took my time writing with the people I missed over this half passed weekend to which I usually talked daily. MASTER. OUJI-KUN. And Z-nee.

4th November 2012

We started the day once again with a showgroup. They were performing D. Gray-man. The Noah's were so hilarious and in-character. Okay, everyone was more or less in-character, but their actor abilities were not that good. One guy  for example looked almost all the time the same although you heard different expressions from his voice. And once again we went to the shops and got more stuff. More presents. (I'll make my brother pay back half of it. I need the money ; 3 ; )

Almost last thing we did this day (yeah, it was rather short ^^;; ) was collecting the last stamps. Since we didn't find them, we asked the people from the booth that was hosting this. Turned out they were almost invisible. But hey, we found them and handed them in before we went back to the stage and watched another - my headache just got worse and worse - showgroup. Can't say much about it, it was okay, but not really my taste. 

And that was our last act. We got our bags and headed to the bus station. My headache almost killed me and I was just relieved ro get back home to my people. I missed all of you ; v ;

#23: Short report

I'm still alive. Incredible, but true.
This weekend the convention happened and my head and body suffered too damn much from this, but I definitely had an awesome time. So long talk short: It was totally worth it.
What exactly happened, although just summarized, will follow probably tomorrow. (I'd post today if I could, but yeah no, I can't.)
Just wait for it. (No, not legendary, but epic. For me at least.)