#32: My hand loves corrosive acid

Goddammit, what am I doing with my life? I wanted to post here like 2 weeks ago and now so much more happened, I don't even know where to start. Why the hell didn't I write it down? D:
Let's try to remember.

.........and then I wanted to write about Biology class where I got corrosive acid on my hand which I didn't notice until it started burning and other stuff. But that was so long ago, now it was Christmas, I got gifts and tomorrow Ouji-kun and his friend'll visit and I'll be busy showing them the capital, so veeeeeeee.
I love my Christmas gifts (and my friends). I'm definitely gonna brag about that here. So just wait. SOON.

#31: Error 404: Sleep not found

The birthday party was simply amazing. I had so much fun, it was just great. Well, I always have fun if I'm together with Z-nee but it's even more fun if Hungary-sama is around as well. We're a damn fine trio, working perfectly together. This weekend just proved it once more.

Hungary-sama picked Azu-nyan and me up and we drove to Z-nee's place (her parents drove us, but pffff (；≧∇≦) =3 ). We arrived just on time - 3 p.m., the time the celebration was supposed to start. After a powerful greeting from her dog which looks like a huge snowball and animosity towards us from her other younger dog, we sat down in the living room to eat cake (we had two different ones) and muffins (chocolate and vanilla with chocolate chips). I don't like cake, so I stuffed myself with muffins. Too bad I had lunch earlier, so I only got to eat two muffins (´∩｀。) I love Z-nee's muffin. Their consistence is just perfect. They weren't dry at all and... waaaah, muffins ヽ(≧Д≦)ノ
Once we finished we went upstairs and made us feel comfortable in one of her many living rooms. Our main intention was to watch a DVD, but first we sang a birthday song and gave Z-nee our gifts.

On the convention a month ago I spotted those two figures. I knew she loves the series, so Hungary-sama and me had the idea to split it and we take one of them. I took Tiger (I *am* Tiger!" 8D) and Hungary-sama Bunny (even if it was the other way round, doesn't matter). Azu-nyan got her the sexy Sebast-chan cup with Zelda mint drops. Hungary-sama also gifted her a picture frame with a photo of the three of us, but I won't show that, we all look retarded on that one 8D
After this was done, we finnaly watched the DVD from a magazine. On this DVD we had different 10 minute-previews of anime and also the first episodes of a few. We were curious about the German dub of Pandora Hearts, so we just watched that. That and a few others, as well as a guy cooking Christmas cake.
First series was "Berserk - Golden Age Arc Movie I". We watched it in Japanese so Azu-nyan'd understand it but they didn't talk much, so that was really pointless. 10 minutes didn't tell much about the story but I can say one thing for sure: I will never accept this person as a male. Eye lashes make everyone look more female, even the main character (that wasn't the main character though) ಠ_ಠ

After that we watched the thing we wanted to watch: Pandora Hearts. Although Oz (I'll call my child like that) is spoken by one of my favourite German voice actors, I can't help but think his voice doesn't fit the character at all. Hey, it's less worse than the horrible German dub of the new Fullmetal Alchemist movie (Milos something) where they used totally new voice actors although the old ones were just perfect ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ  But for some reason I don't want to watch the anime of the series. If I'll ever do something with the series, then it'll be reading. The manga has been for an eternity now on my shopping list but I always found games or manga with a higher priority so I never bought it. "Mardock Scramble : The Second Combustion" was next. I saw an article about the anime in the magazine already, but I swear, I didn't pay attention. So while we watched the first 10 minutes of it, there was this handsome blonde guy. He was getting friends with the main character and wanted to show her his lover. That's why they walked toward an ocean/sea until the guy said "There we are." It ended at this point. All of us were really curious about the lover, complaining that it suddenly ended. But I already made guesses: The ocean was his lover figuratively. Or maybe... hm, there was a sunset and ocean. It all seemed pretty gay, so... Gay?! Dolphins! His lover has to be a freaking dolphin! And I was damn right. It WAS a freaking dolphin. Why even... goddess. But just for the blonde guy named "Tweedledee" I'd watch the movie. Without knowing anything about the series 8'D
Last but not least we watched "Kämpfer" as an anime. Well, what can I say about this random shounen? The jokes. Holy shit, the jokes. They joked about the voice actors of their plushies because the plushies are the ones informing them that they're Kämpfers and so on. Spongebob Squarepants and "Attack No.  1" main character Mila. Our trio kept on joking about this the whole evening.
Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion didn't make it any better. I mean I'm a Suzaku fan girl and when he appeared as SPINzaku I was done. Fangirling aaaall the time, hugging Z-nee's leg and screaming his name. (The atmosphere made me drunk...?) And I still dislike Lelouch sooo much. And C.C. And everyone except Suzaku.

While we finished watching anime with that, we continued with watching a guy baking a Christmas cake. As I already mentioned, Hungary-sama, who's a total pro if it comes to baking, kept on complaining about him not knowing things, naming things wrong and about the kitchen itself. She should make some cupcakes for
me. Hers are... wow. Just wow. I wonder if Master can compete with her （・ｗ・）
And then it was time for a super huge dinner.

Pizza, sushi, more pizza, mini pizza, buns with cheese and/or any kind of sausage... And we were only 4 people. I ate almost all of the mini pizza, at least half a tuna pizza... I was stuffed, but I kept on eating more o(>▽<)o

After going back upstairs we played the UNO card game, Super Smash Bros. Brawl, ate the sushi... And time just flew by. It was midnight already when we decided to play Old Maid with 3 different card sets, a different UNO game, the original one and then... a board game. In German it was called "Malefiz". Duh, this game made all of us damn aggressive and we sat there playing it for 2 hours. It was 3.30 a.m. when finally Hungary-sama won this shit. You can't imagine how frustrating it was. After that we all felt absolutely whacked but weren't tired. Still our group went down to the bathroom doing some business while I ate another piece of pizza.

The situation was just so stupid. While other people'd get drunk (17th birthday, duh!) we played board games until that time. It was so hilarious imagining how you'd tell this to your class mates or other people. "Woah, this weekend we had a gaming evening! We played the whole night and didn't even get to sleep. Aren't we hardcore? We played  a BOARD GAME."

I can't remember what we did after that, but when Z-nee and I went to bed (we shared a room while Azu-nyan and Hungary-sama shared another one), we talked for quite a while about our RPGs, dogs, parents... marrying... It was 5.30 a.m. when we kept silent and tried to sleep.

Z-nee woke me up at 9.30 a.m. and I felt even more tired than before. 4 hours of sleep on a weekend was probably a new record.

We got up, ate more cake for breakfast (I ate muffins) with cocoa (love that shit), played "Panic in Zombieland" and "Pokémon Rumble" on Wii, ate lunch (fish sticks!) packed our stuff and drove to my home after letting Hungary-sama off. I quickly brushed my teeth (haven't done this in a long time ＿|￣|○), threw 4 3D glasses in my bag, mooched money from my mum and made her drive us to the cinema where we met up with Hungary-sama. (We replaced Azu-nyan with my brother.)

We came to watch the movie "Wreck-it Ralph" I had been looking forward to for a really long time. Before the movie started, a short movie called "Paperman" from Disney was on. I don't really know what hit me. But the story was touching. It was animated in black and white, only the lipstick of the female main character was red. When the paper planes started leading them and the classical music started playing, I broke down and started crying like a baby. Especially when my brother told me he got goosebumps. I was disappoint, asking myself why *I* didn't get goosebumps because I knew how much it touched me. But then it just happened. I cried and made ugly faces.

Then the movie started. My brother and me freaked out about every detail, every video game (character) we recognized. Besides parents we also were the oldest visitors - probably the only ones who got the jokes though. So many insiders the small children probably didn't get. And then the credits of the movie. With this this song. And this one. I just sat there, singing along. I love it. I already told my mum that I want the soundtrack of this song as my Christmas gift from her. That and the two train group tickets.

Back home I ate a snack and later also dinner because I was really hungry after eating not much for lunch (wanted to have space for popcorn but in the end I wasn't hungry for that).

And then I went to bed at 10 p.m. (quite early compared to my last night) and fall asleep at 11 p.m.

But back to Christmas gifts... I finally have ideas for everything and ordered the last stuff I can't afford in normal shops online. Sadly, I was 3 € short so I spontaneously had to change my plan and buy different things. The people'll still appreciate it but I'm not sure if they won't be disappointed now that I got their expectations up with complaining about Christmas gifts being better than birthday gifts ○|￣|＿

We'll see. That's all I can say about that now. I mean I still got 19 days.

And with that we're getting to the last point.

A few days ago a person from the organisation called again. She asked a few questions about the explanation from the neurologist but yush, it's finally done!

I still need to get the money stuff done though (ﾉ∇･､)

NEED. TO. DO. THAT. As soon as possible, time's running, this Saturday I'll travel to the capital and meet other host students like Azu-nyan. I'm her company so to say. I won't know anyone and I'll probably be forever alone, but yay, smelling big city air once in a while is nice I guess （´ヘ｀；）

#30: My way of treating people

Wednesday I talked to Z-nee (OMG amazing, right? Talking to your best friend - I might be the first person ever to do this in fact) about upcoming Christmas. When I once again claimed, how much better my Christmas gifts always are (not pushing it, I was just whining about that), she (a seme who doesn't like to take much, especially because it feels like she owes me one) seemed to feel uneasy about this. Of course I understood that, particularly when she said she thinks birthday gifts once a year are enough and if she had to gift all of her friends she couldn't possibly do it because she also has a big family.
But seriously, getting things back is not my intention when gifting. Yeah, all the seme friends (and I have a lot of them) I got will have a problem with this but I don't care, ukes love to make their semes happy! ❤
That's my true intention after all. I just want to make people smile with this. I don't expect anything back, seeing that they consider my gift is more than I could expect or even want. I mean sure, I do LOVE gifts but moreover I'm a laugh maker, even if I'm sad and depressive an awful lot.
Or it's because of my sarcastic and teasing nature. Strangers won't understand this but I used to treat friends in a sarcastic way, act rude although I didn't mean it like that just to be a little funny. Yeah, maybe I'm exaggerating a little but you could say it seemed like I didn't treasure them right. I did though, I just showed it in a rather tsundere way. Maybe I'm a bad judge but I think this changed about a year ago.
I'm still a sarcastic person but I'm showing my love for my close friends in a gay way more openly, hugging them sometimes even although I don't really like to hug if not necessary. (Is it weird that I'm a cuddly person though? Well, let's just say I don't like to hug people not close to me like... class mates or "good" friends.) Pfffff and I'm still asking Z-nee casually everyday if she wants to marry me. She always rejects me, but yesterday she said the following:

• "I will marry you at the latest when you graduated."

Okay, she meant at the earliest, but still. Made my day, ohohoho. Besides my best friend fake sidekick there's also Hungary-sama. I rarely have any classes with her (actually only one and this is Politics D: ) so we only meet each other in breaks if we ever do and then we're all just happy to see each other. Like we three. Z-nee, Hungary-sama and me. My harem. (Am I the only uke around? That's probably why ; v ; )
I'm really looking forward to this weekend. The three of us (and Azu-nyan, we need a mascot after all) will celebrate Z-nee's 17th birthday with cake and probably too much food, (Last year we had sushi, pizza and mini pizzas if I remember correctly. We ate till our stomachs hurt and I swear, we didn't even eat all of it. There was still so much left...) followed by a sleep-over and going to the cinema to watch "Wreck-it Ralph" before it's actually at the cinemas.
Dat movie. Gamer movie. Can't wait to see it. Really. I've been looking forward to it so long and now I'm gonna see it earlier even >v<
And with that awesome weekend also the best month of the year will start: December! *O*
The most important dates'll be 1st, 2nd, 24th, 26th, 27th, 28th and 29th December. I'm looking forward to them the most. Maybe you already know/guessed why, if not maybe I'll write that here (or hint it).

Next blog post probably follows Sunday after I saw the movie including pictures of Z-nee's birthday gifts.
Oh, and I'm also planning to change my blog design a little more, adding a picture and an explaining page. Just check it soon, I'm working on it.

#29: Starting to feel better

When I woke up this morning, the pain in my ear was gone and didn't come back the whole day until now. Let's hope it won't till the evening.
Actually I wanted to go and see the doctor this morning but due to the loss of pain, I didn't think it was necessary. I guess I'm having some liquid in my ear because of the cold but with an infrared lamp this could be cured. Anyhow, I still got to do school stuff so I got no time to sit there, blinded and unable to do anything for a rather long time...
Since I'll write a test tomorrow (in Math class, yay!) I'll better be fit then. I don't want to miss more classes, working to make up for this sucks ; 3 ;

#28: Life Update 10 % complete

Last week or the one before that my mum faxed the explanation to the organisation and also went to her tax adviser for my scholarship. Now I have to make an application for Federal Law on Support in Education. It's a special thing where they're basically supporting your education with money. Hopefully this'll be my pocket money in Japan （￣ー￣； )

Another thing I got ready is my application for exemption for next year. I don't know how much earlier the school wants to see this, but January is not that far, so I'll better hand it in this week. Hopefully – because actually I'm not feeling that well. Yesterday my cold struck me and infected my ear. I've been kinda waiting for this. Usually colds never go without an ear infection for me.

I swear, I lied awake for about an hour, feeling the pulse in my ear because it was that swollen. This morning it felt even worse, really hurt, so I convinced my mum to let me stay home. I tidied up my desktop, messed it up again because I was searching things, but yeah, as I already mentioned I got the application for exemption ready. Oh, and the report of the neurologist! I wanted to do that two weeks ago, but the report didn't arrive until last week. So finaaaaaally, doctor stuff done (if I don't have to go to the doctor because of my ear). (_　_|||)

Somewhen in December I'll also go and buy tickets for my trip in January. They're expensive, but the earlier I buy, the cheaper it is. Okay, yeah, December is not early at all, but my parents, who'll pay for that trip across the country to the place for the one-week-preparation-seminar, didn't have the money for this earlier than that.

So far to my preparations. The rest of this blog post will now deal with private
stuff |*￣^￣)ﾉ彡

Let's start with the bad news first. Yeah, cold, ear infection, you know that, but something even worse. My. Glasses. Broke. Only the frame though. The glasses itself didn't fall apart but it could have happened if I'd have used it more. The culprit was probably the pocket of my coat where I kept it while I was in school. No, I don't have a case for them, that's why (´；д；`) Back home my mum tried to fix it but once the hard and long operation was done, she said it'd be too dangerous because the tension on the glasses would be too high. Instead of risking that I'll just leave these awesome Persona 4 glasses in my room as deco...

But the bad news won't stop here. Yesterday while applying nail enamel (dark green on my left hand, intense red on my right one) it happened: A tiny drop of red enamel dripped on my mousepad (the Vocaloid one you always see on my pictures). Anyone a tip how to remove it without bleaching the mousepad? Does enamel remover work? Goddammit, I'm not girly enough to know that. （　￣д￣;）

With that Christmas is getting closer. Just less than a month （・ｗ・）

I'm no Christmas person at all, really, this tradition is rather annoying for me. It has gone that far that I started considering the gifts as the only pleasing thing.

But this year will be different. Not only am I looking forward to gifts this year, also I want to see the faces of my friends and family when they get my gifts for them. Although the best thing about Christmas'll start on the last Christmas day~ (EXACTLY one month from now. I'm so exited! ヾ(≧∇≦)ゞ)

Once Christmas is over I'll post pictures of the gifts I got and gifted here. Can't do it earlier because I know the friends I'll gift something are reading this (¬д¬。)

Next event on my list is the birthday of my best friend this Saturday. Fortunately her birthday is this time exactly on Saturday, so I don't have to bother giving her the gift in school.

...And somehow people always get cooler Christmas gifts. I don't know why and how, but my Christmas gifts for people are always cooler and more expensive than birthday
gifts Σ(￣ロ￣|||) But people, don't complain. Gift is gift, right? Right?

#27: I choose you, PERSONA

Even if you're feeling really sick, the day starts much better if you wake up and the first thing you see when you look out of the window is fog.
I really love fog. First of all it's because it makes everything look more mystical, kinda adventurous and second is Persona 4. If you haven't heard of it now, back up. Leave. NOW!!!!!!111einseinself
Nah, but yeah, it was so awesome that the fog didn't leave the whole day. Just like in Persona 4, when people were about to die. (If it's foggy in the real world, the fog in the world inside the TV would have cleared up and the shadows'd attack the people caught up in there.) That gave me the urge to put on my glasses who're resembling the main character of the game.

He's my favourite although he doesn't really speak a word. (By the way I don't like the anime and don't agree on the name but YES I do love Skittles. I prefer the sour ones though 8D)
A female online friend made me. After I first loved Yosuke and she came up with Ringo... ô.o
"OMG BEATLES, FUCK YOSUKE I LOVE THE MAIN CHARACTER." 'cause that's how I roll.
Back to the story: Suddenly I remembered that I'm not wearing my glasses in school (no strenght, so pure face decoration) so people wouldn't ask dumb questions. I had to drop the thought and silently admire the fog without being super cool and an otaku ; v ;

#26: I didn't even miss you

And yet you still came back. What's wrong with you? Didn't you get it when I tried telling you I didn't want you?
Sheesh, now you're just making my life really annoying and hard.  You're giving me the worst headaches and even sleep won't make me forget about you because you'll simply come back the next day as if nothing happened.
Even the tea which is supposed to relax me doesn't help at all. You're just here destroying everything.
I really thought you'd be gone when I came back from the convention. And you really were for some time until you decided to come back.
I hate you.
I hate you so much.
Cold - just fuck you and go infect someone else.

#25: THE SILENCE IS FAKE. Like the cake.

Yeah. I didn't disappear. I'm still here, doing small things for my year in Japaaan. They're really small, but hey, it's something.
I got my passport this Monday and instantly sent it to the organisation via mail - the woman I had to send it to wasn't there, so the next day I sent it to another one, no problem.
While I was on my convention weekend I got a letter from them as well, sending me a copy of the doctor stuff because they needed an explanation for some things (and because they couldn't read it). That has to wait until Tuesday though because one of the explanation they want has to be made by my neurologist which I'll go see Tuesday.
I really feel like there wasn't a week the past few months where I didn't go to a doctor. But I'll be finally done then (I hope at least)! ; v ;
Surviiiiiiive, Envy-chan, survive for your dreeeeeeam! *^*

#24: Compact convention report

2nd November 2012

So it started a little chaotic but ended fantastic. But let's start from the beginning, shall we?

Right after school, I hurried out of Math class, jumped with Azu into the car and we got driven to the train station where the ticket machine wouldn't  work properly first and my mum almost freaked out and made me panic as well. But in the end we did make it on time and yeah... While the German post is really awesome and fast, the "Deutsche Bahn" (German train service whatever) isn't. Due to some stuff with brakes, we were 20 minutes late in the end. But not only that, we also took the bus later in the wrong direction, so all in all, we arrived much later than originally planned and I missed the show group I wanted to see - the reason we instantly took the train after school.

We watched the showgroup that was on stage after them though - a mix of Pokémon and Cinderella. (Ohgoddess, why, the Psyducks danced Gangnam Style. My brain is forever damaged. OTL)

After that we walked a bit around and I was kinda searching for a certain German artist I was fan of. Okay, it was more because of his videos on YouTube, but he is such an awesome personality, really entertaining. He wasn't where he was last year, so I was a little disappointed, but I knew he said he would be there, so I trusted this. And then I almost passed him in the corner where shops had their table. I didn't expect him to be there, so I was in a shock state for a short moment. I decided to go to him the day after that because I forgot some stuff and Hungary-sama, who'd come the day after that, would bring that stuff.

Later we went to the real shopping area (I spotted Christmas gifts etc |3) and also back to the main stage, where some kind of cosplay guessing happened. They got a word and had to act to it - the people were all so cool. After that the opening happened. Wow. It was so amazing. I can't describe it, but it was really awesome. Same for the J-Pop concert of a band called "bless4" after that. Honestly, I dislike J-Pop or any Asian pop at all. Fuck me, all kind of pops. But I don't know, this was really cool, hearing it live and all. I think I'm gonna buy their CD and let it get signed when it's time for that.

That was the last thing we did. Okay, after that we went back to the shopping stuff, looked at some things and had simply fun, but we were tired. Yeah, back at the place we'd stay for the weekend we fall onto the couch and rested and ate a really spicy hot dog. (I'm very, very sensitive for this stuff - my tongue was burning.)

3rd November 2012

Saturday started with a fantastic showgroup. The best showgroup I've seen. Last year they did "Avatar - The last airbender" with tons of awesome effects and this year it was awesome as well. "Sengoku Basara" with awesome weapons and at one point I almost cried even. It was so sad ; - ;

After that we went to meet and get together with Hungary-sama. Like her name says she was in her Hungary (Hetalia) cosplay. Over that day she got into a lot of talks with other cosplayers cause of that. (Kinda makes me proud because I brought her into that scene, ohohoho~) After we met my boss who gave me another manga to review (makes 4 left to reviewif we ignore a forgotten one), we went to buy onigiri with Azu and after that... The moment came. The moment, where we decided to visit the German artist I was a fan of. Hugi. First of all, I bought a book of him I didn't have and then everything started.

"I see you have a very good taste!", he said. It wasn't the first time I heard him

say this to a customer, but still, it amused me. I asked him to sign this and another comic, gave him the other already signed ones so he wouldn't draw the same. And he didn't. After drawing and talking with Hungary-sama about "The Walking Dead", I asked him to sign two photos. It was kinda cute that he showed everything around to the other artists at his table - first his own drawings (which were a year old) and then my photos because there were people from this table in the background. After he signed it in silver I also asked for another photo with him and he stood next to me when Hungary-sama took one of us and... Too bad I can't meet him next year ; - ; 

After getting this also done we headed towards the shops. Not only did we buy the birthday/Christmas presents we spotted the day before, we also collected stamps with which we could win tickets for the convention next year. When the day ended, two of them were still missing, but anyway. At 4.15 p.m. we went to another showgroup, but left after 30 minutes already because it was really... bad. That's why we decided to go to the game room. Oh yes, the game room. We went around, saw people playing DDR, beat'em'up games, and every kind of game that was at least a little Japanese. I really felt like home. Fufufu, waiting for the Tekken Tag Tournament 2 contest to start, the three of us played Mario Kart. Long talk short: I won almost all the matches after getting warmed up a little.

As soon as the game (Tekken Tag Tournament 2) was in, we took places and waited for it to load. More and more people started popping up and I made Hungary-sama write her and my name (first she write our embarrrassing full names but luckily she changed it later to our online names) on the list of the participaters. What we didn't know until then: This list was for successors. So we were too fucking late. That didn't matter in the end though: Watching the others playing was entertaining as fuck. Like REALLY exciting and stuff. The atmosphere was really awesome and everyone felt alike. After the tournament finished (...you could win awesome T-Shirts and videogames. So wonderful videogames ; - ; I really hate myself.) Hungary-sama and me played against each other. I fought against her with my favourite characters Alisa and Lars and won most of the time, not always (n00bs and their stupid luck, pfffff), but at least one round when I lost. I kept throwing her with Alisa-chan. She's such a cool character *^* (And sexy although she's a robot |3)

Then we hurried to get back to the main stage to see "bless4" one more time. My boss told me the concert would be even more awesome than the one yesterday was and although I doubted that first, it really was in the end. They sang some more songs than they did the day before. I especially liked that they sang "Cha-la-head-cha-la". They told the audience they were asked that in the press conference so they did. And ohmygoddess, first the sisters did the fusion pose, then all of the siblings did the Ginyu Force pose. It was so freaking epic. In the end, Hungary-sama and me bought the CD. I was unsure until then, but this concert made me want to even more. But that was enough for the day. We took our "taxi" to get back to where we were staying for this weekend. It was almost 11 p.m. when we arrived there and my headache was really bad and I was tired, but I had Internet, so I didn't even think about sleeping yet. Instead I took my time writing with the people I missed over this half passed weekend to which I usually talked daily. MASTER. OUJI-KUN. And Z-nee.

4th November 2012

We started the day once again with a showgroup. They were performing D. Gray-man. The Noah's were so hilarious and in-character. Okay, everyone was more or less in-character, but their actor abilities were not that good. One guy  for example looked almost all the time the same although you heard different expressions from his voice. And once again we went to the shops and got more stuff. More presents. (I'll make my brother pay back half of it. I need the money ; 3 ; )

Almost last thing we did this day (yeah, it was rather short ^^;; ) was collecting the last stamps. Since we didn't find them, we asked the people from the booth that was hosting this. Turned out they were almost invisible. But hey, we found them and handed them in before we went back to the stage and watched another - my headache just got worse and worse - showgroup. Can't say much about it, it was okay, but not really my taste. 

And that was our last act. We got our bags and headed to the bus station. My headache almost killed me and I was just relieved ro get back home to my people. I missed all of you ; v ;

#23: Short report

I'm still alive. Incredible, but true.
This weekend the convention happened and my head and body suffered too damn much from this, but I definitely had an awesome time. So long talk short: It was totally worth it.
What exactly happened, although just summarized, will follow probably tomorrow. (I'd post today if I could, but yeah no, I can't.)
Just wait for it. (No, not legendary, but epic. For me at least.)

#22: Now for real. Finally.

This morning was extremely stressy although it was supposed to be my freetime cause I got the first two classes off. I woke up, really tired, eating, dressing up and leaving for the doctor to get my vaccination (my arm still hurts ; - ; ). While I was vaccinated, my mum realized she forgot my vaccination record. Genius mum. Got the vaccination nevertheless.
Our next tour was the bank to get money for medicaments. On our way back we stopped home, I ran in, got the record and we drove back to the doctor where I got a paper they missed to add as well (we waited a little too long). So we hurried to the car because it was almost time to go to school. But then we decided to get the medication first. We got them and hurried home, where Azu was already ready to go to school. Luckily she didn't go without me and waited patiently until I finished getting my stuff together. I think we never walked this fast before to school together. As always, we didn't speak a single word.
After school (I skipped lunch, yay!) and begging my brother to come with me, we went to the post office (to finally send the fucking medical documents. Done!!) and to the bank. We (only me, but we did it for him as well) needed to register our interest in our bankbook. My mum told me it was because the organisation send stuff for the scholarship and now she needed to send in my balance. Fuck, I'm really afraid that they'll ask for all the saved money there. It's not much. Less than 1/10 of the money the whole trip costs, but I basically saved this money there my whole life. Right, I could work to earn this stuff back, but I don't have time for this. Right now, I don't have any time to do a job. I mean I wouldn't even have many options because I'm still too young. Most jobs are simply for people >18. I really need to concentrate on school more, and doing a job after school won't help me with this at all. Money is nice and all, but education is what'll make me earn more money |D

#21: Finally!

Phew, so today I was visiting the doctor (hopefully the second last time) to get back my medical documents. Tomorrow I'm luckily free the first two classes, so I'll use this time to get a suggested vaccination and to post these documents. I'll pray that it'll arrive tomorrow and they won't kick my ass too much. I know I did shit with doing everything this late (and all of my doctors filled this out in German, not English as it was ordered OTL), but ohmygoddess, finally. After this, all that's left from the list will be the passport which I'll get on 5th November and send instantly.
I'm really glad the organisation is so super friendly but at the same time, this might be what's making me procrastinate (although I feel really guilty).
And then I have to hand in an application for exemption in school for the meeting in January. I better not do that too late.
A minor thing I have to do is to pick a notebook x'D My parents want to buy me one for Japan, but I don't really know which one. I want a coloured one. So no black, grey or white. Best would be pink. No, I don't like pink, but all my technical devices are pink and I want to continue that, just for fun. I already picked one actually, but I want certain graphics and so much stuff that the price'd be the one of a Mac. And my parents can't have that, can they? û.u So I said I'll sacrifice some of my saved money. But there's still time to go. So no need to hurry. First priority is other stuff!

#20: Forgot what happened

So it's been a while since I posted... I wanted to do it already 2 days ago, but then I procrastinated and what-not-so-on.
But to keep everything short: Everything for Japan is done except the medical documents. My doctor was bitching around (my mum complained much more than I did) and I really need to send them, but I can't earlier than Monday because obviously he didn't fill the stuff out yet and argh... Oh right, the passport, too. But I won't get it earlier than the 5th November.
School started being a bitch, but therefor my social life is going quite well. No, I'm NOT choosing social life over school, it just happens besides everything.
Things in my mind right now are a new notebook, Christmas and a surprise for a friend. (He he ❤)

Sorry if my post seems rather lame this time. I don't know, I'm kinda exhausted. More will follow soon anyway.
*crawls away*

#19: When you thought you did it...

When you thought you did it, got things done, the next hurdle pops up in front of you. But sometimes it just happens that you took too many of them during a short time, used the last but of your condition and just break down.
For me this always means tears. It might sound sad, but crying actually feels good for me. I don't have any other way to let go of all the feelings that start welling up inside me, so I'm doing it this way (unconsciously though). No matter how good it feels, to cry you have to have fallen very deep. Something (in my case my parents and also myself me) hurt you.
I learned from all this crying though. Never keep it to yourself. No matter how. Find a way to make yourself felt. Sometimes the simplest way is the best. I told a very important person how I felt. It touched me so much to see how hard this person tried to make me smile. Eventually it worked. It was only for a short moment and not strong, but I smiled. I'm an introverted person and I don't like to show my weakness like this to people, but if you really consider them as friends, don't hesitate.

My reason to cry is actually really stupid. Seriously, if somebody else told me this (or I saw a random post on a social network) I'd probably think by myself that this wouldn't be a reason to cry. But hey, sometimes I really am a crybaby. Gah, so after coming home I forced my family to finally take a family photo with me. I wanted to go print it instantly, but my mum said to me she'd go with the family's new dog to the vet first (I don't consider it as a pet, more a toy. But I'm no animal abuser, I'm still treating it right >:C ). I waited and waited and waited, getting more tired the more time passed. When the clock said 6 pm and the post office closed, my dad called me to tell me they'd get some gas for our car first before my mum'd go with me to get the photos. This was when my motivation sank.

• "No."
• "Why not?"
• "I'm tired and the post office closed already."
• "Oh, okay."

I have no idea why, but this killed me. I wanted to get things done, but didn't because my parents took so long. After saying bye for a nap to the friend, who'd save me later, I started crying in my bed. All this stress there'd still be... It was simply too much. I really wonder if I'm the only one who's overstrained by this. People, if you can't handle this, never apply for a year abroad. I might not be fit for the paper stuff, but I'm willing to survive for the experience I'll have later.
IT'LL BE FREAKING AWESOME.
...Ohmygoddess, the convention's already next weekend. Holy shit. And I think I'll wear no cosplay this time. What's wrong with me.

#18: Improvements all the way

After my teacher kicked my ass, I really saw that there were things I had to improve. It's hard for me to keep all of this up, but today I properly did my homework for tomorrow and finished it even before dinner time. Okay, yeah, it was just one homework (in English), but nevertheless so much better.
And now I even said goodnight to my friends so I could get more sleep (First I'll play a little more Pokémon, but not longer than midnight. Nope.).
Now I'll set goals as well for school. I know my progress will be slowly, but I saw what slacking off did to my grades. Nothing good. I could still pass classes with this but this is simply not enough. Universities are having a numerus clausus for Japanese studies so I need to work hard. It's good that I'll to repeat a year after I get back from Japan (my free will, I'm not THAT bad D: ).
I need to study more, not only for tests but also for a good, active cooperation during classes. My marks for this are really bad because I never raise my hand (...although I'm shy >.>). Then I need to spend more time on homework, do them properly and deep. And definitely more sleep, less procrastinating.
Motivation's there, I just need to fight my laziness. FIGHT!!

#17: All you need is a kick in the ass

What a sick day. Did homework until 1.30 a.m., played Pokémon Black 2  for another hour and got 4 hours of sleep in total. I knew I would do this as soon as school started and that's why I wanted more vacation.
No use, my mum woke me up at 6.30 a.m., I got up to get breakfast, got ready for school and eventually left  our flat with Azu-nyan. I had one class until I got two free classes. Well, 4 because my French teacher wasn't in school. (But I didn't learn that French dialogue, so fuck yeah >:D )
Normally I would have gone home, but Z-nee and me had an appointed talk with our tutor for some time. I told him everything, my non-existing motivation for school, my procrastination, my trip to Japan... He was very understanding, but strict at the same. He clearly told me that I should do better for my dreams, where I could get inspiration from and to get over my bad sleeping habit. I knew everything of it, but still this gave me the final kick. Then we went to my place and I did/finished German homework until we went back to school for the last three classes

Home for a not even few minutes mum and me went to the general practitioner to get the last stuff done - the medical documents. The doctor only took the documents and told me I should call Wednesday again, but at least that meant I'd get it done. After that I went somewhere else with my mum, but when I arrived at home, I started doing my homework. Not instantly and without breaks, but so much faster and more intensive than usually. That's my tutors work. But thanks to Ouji-kun as well. I appreciate your help so much ; v ;
Tomorrow I'll be back earlier, but I wanted to do a photo shooting with my brother and then I have to go to the physiologist. And don't forget about homework. (And it gets dark early, too! ; - ; ) Homework comes first though (Please, don't break my while, other selves. Please. For my own sake.).

#16: Step by step

Every time I get another mail, I can see Japan getting closer. Although I got a safe place in this program, it's still too unreal for me to actually realize it. But it's definitely going to happen.
The day after the last post I went to the town hall with my mum to get a passport for me. When we drew a number and sat down, my mum suddenly asked me whether I had the passport photos with me.

• "What? No, I don't! Why me?"
• "In this case we can leave."
• "Why am I supposed to think of everything?"

So yeah, we really went back home, got the photos and went there again. But we had a really bad argument on the first way back because her sarcasm (which I'd normally not take seriously) hurt me. Or rather it didn't hurt me, it pissed me of badly and so for a short moment, I took out my anger on her. It didn't get any better until we finally sat in the office and I was supposed to give my fingerprint. My mum, who didn't know you were supposed to do this, was amazed like a little child. And this is what made the tension-filled atmosphere loosen up. Luckily, really. With this done the first thing I did back home was going to bed. After another short night I needed more sleep. And I got enough of that, although I had a back headache when I woke up. (Cause is my spine and I'm even going to a physiologist.) After I woke up and my parents return, they had a letter for me from the organisation. It was full of information about the whole trip in general and as well facts about Japan. Was too much too read, so I didn't. Most important was the announcement for a preparation meeting in January which is necessary to attend. Talking to Master about this was like something hit me and I finally realized, that I'd really go to Japan. No easy way back, even if I wanted to.
Next and future goals I'll set myself until Japan: Send the documents until Wednesday, enjoy a certain anime convention in November (3 day ticket, yeeeees!), celebrate belated Christmas with the people I love and last but not least go to the preparation meeting and a Japan festival in January. Going step by step this way will keep me going, especially in school~

2 days since Pokémon Black & White 2 came out. My mum finally gave it to us yesterday. (She gets ALL the Pokémon games for my brother and me, but I didn't expect her to get it right on the release date.) But before she did, she made me do some of the chores, while I made them search a charm of me. It's a charm I had twice, but the second one disappeared mysteriously. Anyway, so although I would have to do lots of homework, I gave in and started playing Pokémon Black 2.

Great game, really, even better than the first, but gah... Why the fuck aren't the legendary Pokémon reverted this time as well? Why do I get a black Kyurem in the black edition? I just hate that. I loved Reshiram and all the other black exclusive Pokémon/locations (the Black Town! *^*) and now they made this. I mean I'll trade with my brother, who has White 2, anyway, but I just can't stop complaining about this. Never. But gftdhtrjwzjuk, N will be back in this game! *Q*

#15: About relief and personal rewards

Yesterday I got a call from a woman who works for the organisation I'm going to Japan with. She told me everything arrived and was really good (especially my letter for the host family! *^*) but she'd like to have a better photo of my family. The photo I sent showed us playing a board game together but you couldn't see the faces of everyone. The woman wanted to keep it though since it showed our family life very good. She suggested to send the other picture with the medical documents together and I told her this would be no problem. It wasn't after all (if you ignore the fact that we have no proper family picture and we had to take one, ahahaha).
But yeah, this was such a relief for me- Not only that it arrived in time but that it also was a good outcome. I'm proud of myself. It's bad that I procrastinated but my special skill - working under high pressure - only shows when the dead line is close. OTL

The evening I invited my brother to watch the movies with me. I already watched "In a Distant Time" earlier (seriously, I'd love to play the visual novel of it... Tenma, Tomomasa and Abe no Yasuaki were so... my favourites.) and well, for 2 episodes it was okay. They were only OVAs and the story may have been a little confusing, but it was nice. You can't make more out of dating games than that. But yeah, and I didn't want to watch Memoirs of a Geisha again although it's an awesome movie because I already saw it 3 times and my brother would probably think it's too boring, so we went for Gantz.
With crisps and drink and jellybabies we sat on top of the bunk bed in my room and watched the two Gantz movies in a row. Almost. Sometimes we made breaks so I could go and answer people on Skype >v<;; To summon it up: It was hella awesome. The last Japanese movie I watched with my brother was "Higanjima" (worst vampire movie ever) so we were sceptical since the movie was full of effects. But it turned out awesome and although I never watched the anime/read the manga I think it might have been very close. The effects were really good and my brother was flashed by the ending. I could imagine this already, but it was stunning nevertheless. One of the best live actions I've seen so far. (All the time I thought about Art class, like "Damn, I drew their suits wrong!")

And today, last thing for this post, my game arrived. It's nothing special, but to get the game boxed as new for only 3,42 € was worth it. It's pretty fun as well.

In the game you're playing the agents who are helping people who need... well, help. It's a rhythm game, so just tap on popping up numbers when the time has come for that. The first thing I thought of while playing this was "osu!" . Seriously, the same stuff. But it's a lot easier because of the smaller screen and hands are faster than computer mouses. I also thought that there would be some stupid game music, but it's real music. Sung by different artists, but still. There are songs like "Y.M.C.A", "Sk8er Boi", "Marterial Girl" and "I was born to love you". I was really amazed by that x'D I'm playing all of these via hi-fi and my brother is like: "Dude, now turn this shit off! >:C"
I will never stop ❤

P.S.: Since I know there are people watching: Got the message from the online store that the Christmas gifts were sent |3

#14: You have to love it.

Yeah, you should love the speed of the German post. I ordered two days ago, got a mail that it was sent yesterday and today it already arrived - my hot deal.

Just the DVDs. Envy already belongs to me for a loooong time.

So later that day I'll probably start watching the stuff (no need to watch "Memoirs of a Geisha" though, saw that awesome movie already 3 times >v<) and maybe even give a comment about that here. Because of Art class (right, Z-nee?) I'm really looking forward to see Gantz.
In any case my anime/Japanese movie shelf will be glad to have new friends. Hip hip hooray!
Yeah, this was totally worth two posts a day. Deal with it.

#13: I did it!

It was such a pain yesterday. I was basically on the road all the morning and afternoon. But I sent it and for now I can rest a little.

• Online form ✓
• Statement of agreement ✓
• Medical documents
• Letter for host family ✓
• Photos✓
• School documents ✓
• Passport copy

All the stuff that has to be sent via snail mail (except the medical documents) were sent yesterday. All the online stuff is uploaded as well, so now I just need to wait for next week when I can go to the doctor.

Goddammit, my mum paid 14€ for 6 passport photos.

A propos money. Since my other friend (not officially, but we won't go after all/now I can't anymore) canceled the shopping trip to Berlin, I threw myself in the arms of online shopping sites.

I made some really hot deals *^* There was for example this offer where you can buy 4 DVDs for 20€. Not just some random DVDs, no. If it was that way I'd never bought something. But those DVDs were anime/Japanese movies. And I bought

• Memoirs of a Geisha
• Gantz
• Gantz 2: Perfect Answer
• In a Distant Time

First three are movies/live actions while the last is some shoujo anime movie adaption from a video game. It's hard to find the real English title since it was never released there D:

Another thing I bought is a new game for my lonely DS. I mean I still have tons of unfinished games here, but not the motivation to play them. I stopped playing them for a reason after all. (THE FUCKING BOSS/whatever WAS TOO HARD.) The only games I play naturally are Dragon Quest IX, Pokémon (any DS title) and- Oh wait, that's it.

But that's still not it. On another site I also bought Christmas gifts. Yep, I'm crazy, but I didn't want to wait any longer (I bought gifts for 2 people. So at least 2 are still missing.) because it seemed like a good deal to me and who knows if they'd have had it still later... Can't wait to see their faces! This is definitely going to be the best Christmas vacation ever. There will be great gifts and great people. Haaaah, I just love my people. ❤

#12: Stress³

I deserve to go to hell for procrastinating so much.
Yesterday I finally decided ton intensively start filling out the stuff for Japan. Thanks to Master-chan for getting mad with me because of this, I feel like I needed that OTL
Anyway, so what is there to do?

• Online form 
• Statement of agreement ✓
• Medical documents
• Letter for host family ✓
• Photos
• School documents ✓
• Passport copy

All of them (except the online form) have to be sent in via snail mail, some (letter for the host family, photos) have to be uploaded online as well.
Photos are basically done, I just need to get 6 portrait photos of me. I don't have a passport yet, still need to make an application for this, but that doesn't need to be sent until tomorrow. Also I asked to send in the medical document later because  my appointment isn't earlier than next week and this week my doctor's on vacation (damn fate, really). My dentist already did his job (this morning I went there and got an examination ahead of time), all that's missing now is the long examination of the general practitioner. Last but not least the online form is no problem, only difficult thing for me is that it has to be filled out in English. My father for example has an occupation where there exists no English translation. But I'll get it done, no sweat. This is my dream after all and in order to fulfill it I even risk depression like yesterday.
I don't even know how it could happen, but I found myself suddenly almost crying and being terribly depressed after I worked for about 2 hours on this stuff.  But my mood got better when I called for a veeeery long time with a friend. Okay, you couldn't really call this a call/real conversation, but it made me really happy to hear at least his voice. Ha ha, the fan girl in me awoke when he talked to his friend. (It's obvious who's uke and who's seme.)
With that said, I'm off to do the last bit of my work. Okay, but not right now, but definitely today *^*
**HARDWORKER MODE ACTIVATED**
**INITIATE CLOSING OF ALL SHOPPING TABS IN BACKGROUND**

#11: Stalking the stalkers

Yaaay, so as expected, I stayed home all Saturday!
I woke up at 2 p.m., got dressed up, prepared an almost failing pizza (tasted awesome though) and rolled myself to my computer to talk all day with two friends, especially Ouji-kun. Really, I felt positive all the time. In contrast to my expectations I wasn't in a bad mood and that counts more than going out or anything >v<

And I played Dragon Quest IX all day. Seriously, I'll never get sick of that awesome piece of shit *Q* There's so much you can do after you beat the story. Like completing your alchemy stuff, explore caves with treasure maps, level up, getting all titles, missions... It's simply amazing. My characters are all named after my friends and my brother in real life. It's funny to see how the jobs fit them. Or not. I'm a luminary. I raise the concentration of other characters and disturb the enemies. Not sure if that's me XD
My next in the game is to complete mission 59. I have to get some shoes but they can only be collected in high ranked caves... I paused in a cave rank 74 because my brother with who I'm playing co-op went to bed. My characters are level 45, 72 and 66, so maybe it might be a little too high but tactic will always beat strength *^* If the difference between the levels isn't too high, that is.

Today after getting some sleep I'll definitely play some more. I love that I got into the game again because it consumes so much time and it keeps me busy. This could be some really nice holidays. I mean the start of next week will be stressful because I need to send the stuff for Japan (oh yes, still no reply about that. And my doctor is on vacation as well, this is really... Bad coincidence.) and do some homework but then it'll be the same again. Nothing to do, so yes, I count on my friends and video games X3 Like always.

About the title: I'm constantly watching the rising number of visits of my blog. It's funny. I mean I can see what pages linked to my blog, what words people searched for to get to my blog... Most people who are reading this are my friends/people I know in person. I know 3.
Just that you guys know: I CAN SEE YOU ❤

#10: Procrastinated too much

Ohmygoddess, just checked my online paper stuff for Japan again. All of these are due to 19th October. Worst part of it: I have to visit doctors and it's already Friday, means I can't go until Monday. Wednesday is the dead line and that means it has to arrive there already.
Filling out the rest is no problem, but the doctor stuff is what's worrying me. It's not just a simple paper, it's a fucking long one. And all has to be done Monday. I PROCRASTINATED WAY TOO MUCH. OTL
I just hope they won't cancel me from the program if I fail to send it in time ; - ;
Better gonna send an e-mail later to ask if that's the case... Sheesh, I could really bite my ass because of this.

So, today I stayed up until 5.30 in the morning, slept until my mum woke me up for lunch and went back to sleep until 3 p.m. It was really nice since I didn't know what to do anyway with my day.
Same for tomorrow. I wanted to meet up with a friend, but there wasn't a message yet when. I'll see tomorrow if we'll meet. If not, I'll spend a nice day online... Well, like everyday >v< Right, Ouji-kun~❤?

#9: Plans? What are you talking about?

Just a normal thought, after you wake up, get a call from a friend who cancels all the plan for tomorrow.
I am slightly angry about this although it's also my mistake for not replying to her. Anyway, so tomorrow will be an emo day. I'll be home alone and depressed and wondering, why my friends never talk to me.
That mood makes me want to reject any offer she... offers me. Canoe? Fuck it, bitch. Anything else? NOT WITH YOU. (At least not in these vacations.)
Oh yes, my friends and me.
Gah, that's why I don't like to see myself angry. I'm wonderfully stupid when I am.

Meaningless post of the day.

#8: Nevermind

Nevermind, I simply won't post if there isn't anything interesting going on. Yesterday I was just staying home, watching gamers play horror games and playing Dragon Quest IX myself.
Since I won't be able to post anything this evening, I decided to do it now.
I'll visit Z-nee and we'll do the same things as usual: YouTube, shooting  zombies, watching anime, discuss about our stories, pairings and whatever. The food her parents make is delicious >v<

Oh, and I'm an animal enemy obviously. My mum just called me that. Yay!
All because I dislike their new dog.

"Can't you be happy for your dad?" she said.

Well... No? Besides the fact that it's a dog and not a cat (I admit it's selfish to force the wish to have a cat on everyone else) they lied to me. I haven't told them my honest feelings and what I really think about this but that wouldn't change a thing anyway. Gah, it's making me really... want to cry when I think about this. Thanks goddess my beloved Z-nee will put me into a better mood ; v ;

#7: Back to routine

Hopefully ; ³ ;
When Z-nee said today

You won't be able to keep up with the daily routine of your blog anyway. Soon it'll be 3 days, then 4, then 5...

it was kinda depressing me XD The truth hurts.
I know I'll be busy sometimes, but I really want to do it >.< It's a good waste of time as well. I'm bored quite often, might help.

So, what happened today? Today I went back to tennis training after a break of one month. I started playing because of Prince of Tennis. So of course I got really bad and *sigh*... It was so depressing. But as soon as I started heading back, I was suddenly in an awesome mood. Singing, smiling, looking forward to get home to talk to my beloved ones.
Somehow I'm really relieved that I'll quit tennis at the end of this year. (I'm in a tennis club and you have to pay a year in advance. So 3 months - in March I'll go to Japan - wouldn't be worth it.) I used to have fun but now I want to try out other things. Why is sleeping no sport?
I really want to play volleyball in Japan. It has always been my favourite sports in P.E. class, now I want to try it out professional. Get better in Japan and return to surprise everyone in Germany. My plan!
Some of you might wonder why I'm not trying out some cool Japanese kind of sports like Kendo, Aikido or whatever... Who knows, ahahaha XD I used to train Taekwondo (for 6 years), so maybe I'll return to martial arts, although I never thought of doing so. There's enough time~

#6: COMBO BREAKER

Wow, so it happened. Didn't post a day and... ""OTL
I was so tired yesterday, I'm sorry. I'll try to make up for this now.

Well, that day we made muffins was really a mess. First of all the stuff for the muffins was just really chemical. You could even smell it. Didn't taste bad, but after eating Hungary-sama's awesome cupcakes earlier, this was simply an insult for my tongue.

But hey, the result looks cute in pink. I guess.
(Note: The ones with cream, except the one with the A, are Hungary-sama's cupcake. All made herself.)
Then we started a photo session. Somehow I had the idea to copy the pose of some guys. We didn't have all the clothes to exactly copy them (would have been weird if we did), but we improvised quite well. It was a lot of fun as well.
Later that day my parents suddenly returned with a dog. A puppy. A new one. I didn't even know where they have been for hours. First I couldn't believe my eyes but then I just got angry.
For some time now I always wanted a cat. But my parents told me we wouldn't get one before our other dog, 15 years old already, deaf and close to be blind, would be dead. That and I had to decide: Either Japan or a cat. When my grandpa's dog died, they helped him find a new one. Short time after that my mum and me came to talk about something like that.

• Mum: "Your Dad would rather have a dog."
• Me: "If you get a dog, I won't care for it:"
• Mum: "You had the choice - Japan or a cat!"
• Me: "As if I could change my opinion now..."

So they practically broke their own words with getting a new pet before our poor, now jealous, old dog dies. Yesterday while showering I was finally able to cry over that. Helped me to release some emotions I couldn't bear anymore. Relationship since then is okay. I mean I won't forgive them, but I'll act normally around them. We're still a family, even if I can see distance myself slowly.
But my awesome friends helped me. Hungary-sama suggested to go on a canoe tour for some time and after that to the "Oktoberfest". No, I don't live in Bavaria but my town has a tent like that build up.
When we checked the canoe place, there was no one. Besides this it was closed. Disappointed we drove away until we decided to go on a bicycle tour. We drove much... Azu-nyan's calculation said 29,9 km but I'm not sure about this. We had fun and that's what counts. We had a(nother) photo session for over 2 hours.

Back in town we went to the cinema and watched a movie, I'd have never watched. Step Up 4 in 3D. I got goosebumps sometimes, although everything was so predictable... D:

Today I'll be staying all day at home. Plans for next week are already made, barely got freetime, but this means more fuuuuuuun!
And more stuff to blog about.

#5: Vacation, here I come!

Phew, last day of school for a while. And for a while means two weeks. Time for German fall vacation! (American English ftw. Although British sounds so sexy.)
Plans are... planned to be planned, so let's just hope I'll seriously consider doing them. Unlike the summer vacation were I planned tons of stuff and realized only 1/3 of it. Ahahaha, I can perfectly remember it. They started as the worst summer vacations ever - I was lonely, depressed and cried all day. But then Master-chan, the most awesome being ever introduced someone to me and surprisingly everything turned around. New friends, new motivation, new... whatever, positive feelings!
This time I'm starting the vacation totally motivated. I wonder if that's wrong because if you're up high, you can only fall down, but I trust my friends ; ³ ; We wanted  to meet and hopefully we will.
I only planned 2 events so far - shopping with Azu-nyan and 3 other friends in Berlin (or moreover a friend and the friend's friends) and last but not least meeting up with Z-nee again. It's been such a long time >.< Probably since - no, the last time was DEFINETLY during the summer vacation. And that's like 2 months ago. More than that even. Goddess, I'm such a bad friend in real life D:
Later Hungary-sama will come over and we will bake Hello Kitty muffins. Since Hello Kitty belongs to Japan, I'll post pictures of them later >v< So yay, two posts a day! a.k.a. Spam.
I can't bake. I'll let my friend do the main work while I advise her how to use our oven and everything, ahahaha X3

#4: I'm proud of myself, ohohoho!

Fourth blog post. And all of them in a row, each a day. I'm glad it's working out for me, even if I'll be only posting daily life stuff for a while XD
Nevertheless I can see people read my stuff, even if they're not commenting. This makes me really happy, thank you very much, everyone!

What a day.
Everything started with a group meeting for the upcoming cultural days of our school in January. The topic is personalities and everyone in school signed up for one person. I took Taeyang, someone from BigBang. I sat there during the whole meeting... Cursing that I'd have to dance XD I can't daaaance ; - ;
Okay, I can, but not hip hop, C-Walk or whatever. Can't we just dance the moves from some music video of him? Oh well, I'll just fit in somehow anyway. IT WILL BE SO EMBARRASSING. Later we have to present that in front of the whole school. My friends'll all see me... OTL Well, I can still become a YouTube star.
After this meeting our sport festival thingy was supposed to start, but during rain it was canceled. Damn school forced us to attend classes although no one had school stuff with them. I wasn't even listening, I spend all the time with drawing that photo a friend gave me. The best thing about school - that atmosphere that makes you creative and simply productive about everything, just not school. I'm really looking forward to finish that artwork. Don't know if I'll gift it my friend yet (okay, no, I won't. It'll be too awesome for anyone but me... >v>) but I'm so glad that I finally got to draw again!

Envy-chan out.

#3: Effort... for what?

Obviously the daily update routine doesn't work, I don't know what I should blog about.

I hate school right now so much. Tests, homework, and even bigger tests are just shouting for me non-stop. But it feels so useless to to do anything. I'm only learning what necessary so I'll get the points I need to pass. I know this attitude is horrible and it will get back on me someday... Just now I don't want to think about that. I want to spend my time in Germany useful, with friends and having as much fun as I want because there will be the day when I start missing my home and friends.
It's actually one of my biggest fear - that I might lose contact or grow apart with my friends. One year is long but they're so important for me ; - ;
Not only Z-nee, Hungary-sama and Rikku-san here in Germany, but also Ouji-kun and Master-chan. Actually I don't worry much about losing touch with the last two, but maybe the time difference will make it hard sometimes. Gah, so much emotional stuff. Sorry, just had to get rid of it.
Anyway, I don't want to worry too much. I love my friends and family, so I trust them. It will be alright. I will at least try to make it work.

#2: Help, please?

Uff, so now that I got a place for Japan, all the paper works started. I have to finish at 10th October and it will be a lot work until then. Worst is that my family can't help me because it has to be done in English and they suck and they... jbndfjkbnjnhthj
Anyway, so there is this piece of paper where I need to convert my German marks into American ones. No problem so far, but now there are two subjects and I don't know what they would be in English.

1. A subject about religion. But not only religion, also talking about social values, drugs, death, luck... A little psychological. An American friend told me it wouldn't be "Religion" since not many schools have that subject. He suggested "Civics"...

2. A subject where we talked about how machines and robots work, career, university and even did practical work in jobs we could pick. My American friend went for "Career".

If you can help me somehow, please do, my time is running >v<;;

P.S.: Since I obviously can't work with... a divided blog, I'll just use labels. "Preparations for Japan", "Japan", "Unrelated private stuff" and "Otaku stuff" will be it I guess. So if someone doesn't want to read the otaku stuff, look for the labels.

#1: Took me long enough.

In March 2011 I registered my account, now 18 months passed and I finally get to write a post. Better than starting to write first and then writing nothing for ages...
But at least I have a reason to write!
This blog is supposed to be my blog for Japan since I'll go there in March 2013. And I have to admit that I was inspired by ChibiNamida's blog. Not only with making a blog but as well as going to Japan. Thank you so much ; v ;

Although I am German and I live in Germany I decided to write in English. I got many friends in all countries all over the world, so I hope they will read this maybe. Or not. Just want to share my experiences D:
It's especially dedicated to le awesome Master-chan a.k.a. Nyanne-bocchanman, who will die out of envy. I love you, too! ❤ I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS.